tired.

yEAh! done with IDEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! finally. phooo
time to take rest b4 report writing !

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right!
time to sleep!

sick

i dun want this. i wanna be who i am. i feel troubled. i am so so so so so confused. i am perplexed. i need to be friendly and yet i've to keep reminding myself to keep a distance from him. why is he treating mi so good. why isnt he my bf. how i wish my bf is like that. why isnt my bf beside mi. i am going crazy about these things. wat should i do? i dun wanna give him hope yet he needs my support right now, he's been treating mi so good and i dun wanna put him aside. cant possibly be cruel towards him anymore.

anyway, as my own bf, himself requested, i should learn to let go..not letting him be the most important person in my heart. perhaps all these are presurizing him.
ppl just wont appreciate when u are treating them like the most important person anyway. his excuse to rebutt is 'i nv ask to do this for mi.'
will nv forget this statement.

impression comes b4 everything. self reputation is the most important thing to do. so wat if u have a veri good 1st impression? as time goes by, when ppl gets to know u better and longer, they will know as wat u really are and no longer take u as the 1st impression u gave them earlier on. wat for doing so much about ur 1st impression? might as well think of ways to be a good person and ppl will like u no matter wat. 1st impression is important in certain extent but definitely not among friends,
especially teenagers.

wat's next? no idea. how to let go? no idea. hate him? probably cant hate him so much now. so wat should be my next move?

initial D

initial D!!!! Edison is so handsome!!!!! ^^ hmmm as when jay was taking a stroll with his gf, i tot of my bf suddenly`` how i wish he'll take a stroll with mi. too bad, time seems veri precious for him and its impossible for him to slower down. manz~ dating for him is like going out and doing something together. i wont say its wrong, coz different ppl have different concept of relationship, morever, different age ppl think differently -.- he's like still living in pri school whereby scare of parents and afraid to make any mistakes, who doesnt make mistakes on earth? and wat's the word 'forgive' for. its used when u made mistakes. right -.- common sense.
to mi, i dont mind going to each other's house and doing differernt things, as long as i know my another half is beside mi and i get to see him. however, all these are pratically so called waste of time for desmond.

botak is back` hahaha weijie booked out yesterday` gOsSHh so dark and fit now. hahaha soOOo cUTeEEE with the boTAK heaD!!!! awhahahha lolololol
talk so much about school of commandos from him yesterday`. lolx
erhm.. ppl!!! if u happen to use the toilet in starbucks @ holland V, DONT use!!! coz it gets stuck easily!!!! benjamin JAMED it yesterday and it still not repaired yet! lOlx

today is sunday, suppose to meet desmond today, yet cck is too faraway for him, to spend his time and travel here all the way from katong. so he's at his friend's house now and i am left at home alone. well well well. all these are expected. coz i am no longer staying in clementi and time is precious.

friends are important than anything else now~ same for mi.

i've learn my lessons and i guess i know wat i wanna and wat i needa now`.
1st of all! i must not feel lonely. yeah. its like i still feel so lonely even if i have a bf. wtf right. lolx never mind about it, learn to let go. anyway, gotta learn not to take things so hard now`. coz the more disappointments in the end.

anyway, i needa plan for myself. not gonna depend on anyone else and i gotta be independent again.
weekdays i'll have classmates, meLissAaAAaaaaa and the BAND! ^^ one of the great choice i have choosen was to join the sp bAnd.
weekends i'll have the 'elderlis' to accompany mi``~ free time!??! sTUDY~!!!!!!!! have not touch on anything yet and its already week 4!!!

hmmmmmm going to lot1 now and help girley brother~weijie to get a goggles, then send him back to camp with the elderlies~ ahaha
should i get a PINK or a PURPLE one? lolx..
no matter wat, gotta thank them for killing my times~ ^^

vin is sad

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! later den i realised that i've said the wrong thing to vin. WAH LAO......... i hate myself being so childish and so inconsiderate. he looked so upset and stressed today. quiet all the time, expressionless, eyes turned red... wat to say.. wat to do... i am so ignorant!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! argh!!!!!!!!!!!! no wonder he didnt reply mi when i said such stupid thing, he should have scold mi!!!!!!!!!!! ><>
i am suppose to be there for him and support him yet i said stupid thing. should have scold mi!!!!!!!!!!!!! ........ why choose to keep quiet instead of scolding mi. i would feel better if u scold mi that time. i'll feel good if u hate mi too. wah LAO.
...HELEN IS SO INSENSITIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its friday!!

woke up late again!!!!!!!!! dessie forgotten to give mi morning call!!! he was happily talking to his friend on the bus and forgotten about mi!!!! WTH.
anyway reached school at 10+++am when my lesson, Design and Drawing started at 9am. marked as absent for sure -.-
its on the topic architectural and strctural drawing today..arGh!!!!! its getting more and more complicated! ><
dessie came to my new house today! hahahaha or rather.. he's at my house now!!!! he's so stiff now!! still carrying his bag sitting on the sofa and DARE not to move at all!! LOLOLOLOLx
he's scare of my mum. -.- watever for. my mum is not fierce right, for those who have met her.
and he still not going to move! lolx -.- he is sitting so still, dare not to talk. he dare not to come near mi. so stupid. onli looking at his lecture notes. GROw UP la. think he's still in primary school ah -.- lolx
well..really dun understand wat's in his mind.

1st sectional

just wanna talk about 1st sectional today~
wah practically it was super boring... coz it was tone trainning``` breath breath````learn how to breath.. with stomach! -.- low note low note```
Fadhi sat at the chair and looked so sad during the water break -.- he got demoralised`! hahaha manz take it easy ~! anyway his side reading is damn power. kaoz. -.-
sectional was really veri dry at 1st`. later got to play the sections compeition piece` it was quite nice but as everyone says~ it's too long!!
still choosing piccolo player~~ yup!!! i dun wanna play!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
thats all`~ ^^

wed

OkAy~! independent today`. no one drive mi to school and drive mi home today~!
late for school for 1 and a half hour. it was building science. damn.
its 3 hours long break b4 an Aids talk in the afternoon and so went to play pool with classmates.
WEeeeeeeeeeeeee i won all the way!!! was playing with Filbert all the way and he went off to meet his gf for lunch later`. manzzz wats the point looking for his gf while his gf is still so immaturely developing. hmmmmmmm such a nice guy, why must let thr girl bully until like that. knowing that they are going to break up at the end of july, i cant see that Filbert is actually cherishing every secs with her now. when we talked about BGR, he'd just keep quiet now.. poor thingy. how can she bully such a nice guy.. haizyo
guys who are so caring and gentleman and faithful is super hard to find nowadays!!!!! plus he's not ugly nor nerd. man!!!! treasure him!!! dun wanna see my friend carrying a dead face everyday after july.

went to play bowling after playing pool -.- 3 hours break!! hahaha
the Aids talk was basically very normal. its general knowlegde + common sense. it ended earlier than expected.
sian! left alone and went to np again and waited for des at the bus stop there for half an hour. sickening manz. so crowded and smoky there.
saw KAren! GOsh.. little girl has grown up!! hahaha cant recognise her at all!! ^^
went to cine and watched ghost train with des.
went back home alone after that. it was 9pm then.
stood on the train all the way`~ its about 1 hour journey` less than that actually``hmmmm damn sleepy.````-.-

21 june

its xiangying's bURrrfffday today~!!!! msged her yesterday night le!! ^^ miss her so mUCh!! will go np and LOOk for her soon!! not make use ..hahaha

well`, lesson started at 8am today.. so as usualy woke up at 8am. ...
hmmm vin drove mi to school and Traffic JAM!!!!!!!!!!!! reached school at 9.30++am.. lol missed one tutorial but managed to finish it by the end of the lesson~lessons were so boring today! msg des and wanted to go np and meet him, but he called after his lesson and told mi that he's going home then. saddened.

went for band practice today` unluckily, played the piccolo. yuck. i dun wanna play it, it sounded terrible when i was playing it!! was suppose to go home with fradhi after practice, but too bad, hahaha vin drove mi home after having dinner with uncle and weikai and benjamin` hmmm wat's happening to benjamin? -.-

disheartened to see my friends got hurt from their relationships, one by one. haiz

shift house

19th june 05.. shift house to ChoA Chu KAng
ArGh!!!!!!!!!! so tirED! slept at 8am in the morning and woke up at 12pm for shifting of house!!! ><
reached cck, security guard came and asked for application form from management for moving in on Sunday. Called agent and landlord. Manz landlord onli applied for moving out and didnt applied for moving. workers had a quarrel with the security guard. well i stood in the middle and looked away as they quarrelled.
reached new house, tired tired tired packing packing packing` -.-
felt so bored and lonel~ no internet, no scv, no telephone, no one was at home, empty stomach!!! bf was playing game.
uncle mason msg mi and asked if i wanna join them for supper.. yeah! so went for supper with uncle mason, vin, weikai, benjamin and his gf! 1st time get to see his gf! ^^ heehee in sp alsO oRH. o.O
reached home at 1am, its late but at least killed some of my time yea.

woke up at 7.20am -.- earliest le!!!!
ok. vin called at 7.42am and said he's downstairs already, o.O!!!! so quickly rushed down and he drove mi to school~ was complaining all the why on the car... it was still so damn damn damn damn early leh!!!! OMg!!!!!!!!!!!! not enough of sleep at all!!
reached school at 8.25am. yaya late again, i think lecture has already given up hopes on mi to be punctual. lolx. went inside lecture room and put down my bag, den went out to fc 1 to have breakfast with vin 1st..` sHooooo went back to lecture room and read TOdaY and guess what!!! i fell asleep while reading newspaper leh!! really really tired tired tired tired. -.-

one word. tired

thursday. 16th june

dARling gave mi morning call at 8.50am today. yup yup continued with my halfway done model which i didnt even think of wat is it -.- quickly do some power point slides and went to school. yeah!! lesson started at 9am and it ended at 12am sharp, guess wat? i reached class at 11.41am. Ruby was present when i open the door -.- and oopz! guess she was disturbed that. quickly grab a seat in between benson and alvin. luckily my turn wasnt over yet but i was still thinking of wat should i call my model la. ok actually alvin gave mi this idea, a special alarm clcok to wake up ppl like mi. -.- eh dui, its a good idea. lolx xy gave her presentation b4 mi. wow her ppt was bravo la! mine was like kns, onli the pics. lolx didnt have enough time to prepare. =X but my model was quite nice! that's wat the lecture said ^^ yeah yeah i called it a special alarm clock later which is specially designated for ppl like mi, who have difficulty in getting out of the bed every morning! it has got 'hands' and 'legs' and sensors. was like saying everything that i could thought of then infront of the whole class. most importantly it was actually a test which carries 10% of the totally mark for the module of this semester.
ok so it was over and phEw.. hmmmm ate at fc1 and FINALLY~!!!!!! i appeared in ECT&P lecture today leh! haiz haiz haiz!! i was so hyper while everyone around mi seemed so bored. some were sleeping, some were talking, some were listening to their mp3, some even went out of the lecture room dunnoe for wat. i tried to be attentive and asked lecturer some questions. i wanted to sleep also but was just so hyper la! -.- dunnoe why also. hmmmm shouted out for a tea break out of a sudden -.- so it was 30 mins tea break time! for my class.. everybody seemed to be energetic again and went out to buy some tidbits -.- for buddy classmates, most of them took a nap -.- different characteristics of both classes. lolx
shag after the tea break and no longer could concentrate in class. -.- used the phone and listen to mp3 until the end of the lesson.
Eh suppose to go calim gym with lynn, but she last time dua mi again. -.-

15th june. 100 days with deS

15th jUne

school ended at 12. hmmm was late for class as usually, late for about..1 and a half hour.. missed building science lecture and it was practicle when i reached school. was suppose to eat in nYdc in suntec one, but everyone was like so in hurry to do the IDEA project and so we posponed the meal to next week. went to DaisO in IMM with Lydia, huixian, bEnson and Tracy after eating in school. bought some stuffs for our bfs. =.= actually it was mainly for huixian and her bf.

100 days with gayyee darling ^^
watched Mr. and Mrs. Smith, yupiE!!!! forced DArling to watch again for my sake!! =p he watched it with his DEARLY SEXMATE on her birthday`. orbiiiiiiiii one of his new ear piercing got infection i think, it was swollen anyway. he went piercing with his DEARLY SEXMATE. orbiiiiiiii orbiiiiii

wah kaoz. was feeling so damn dizzy after drinking the ice machoccino in imm.
back home and started doing my IDEA project straightaway. felt so damn dizzy dizzy dizzy while drawing and making the model. asked my mummIe to apply medicate oil for mi as my hands were dirty. felt no better but worse -.- felt more and more giddy and dizzy, head was so heavy till couldnt even move at all, except lying down. -.- felt like vomitting but noting was coming out, felt like sleeping but just couldnt, felt like standing up or sitting up straight but just didnt have the strenght.. felt like faiting but just couldnt make myself faint -.- felt so weak.
it was really terrible. dunnoe the reason why. most probably due to the mocha and forgot to take my dinner -.-
no choice, gotta leave my model halfway done and went to rest 1st. but couldnt sleep until 4am plus.. WHY!!!!!!?

1st outing with my poly friends ^^

hmmmmmm made an effort to wake up suPER early today!! 7.20am leh!!!! reached school at 8.14am!! ok quickly sat down and took out my law book and study. went to look for lecturer after the lesson and told him that i was here for lesson. damn he marked mi as LATE!!! damn it!! of coz kang him!!!! talk talk talk talk talk shot shoot shoooooot him!!! he said he called out three times and no one ans him and i said after u calling 3 times doesnt mean 15 mins has over and doesnt mean i was LATE! its like the law concept we learnt. OACLC!! den i dared him to ask mi anything about wat he said in class today. he said ' there's not such need and actually he's testing mi, next time pls try to be early.' ^^ yeah yeah! of coz i will. i dun wanna be late also!!! coz i'll onli get to sit at the corner (which is not too bad thou) or sit alone at the back ( this is bad bad bad), not onli i got no one to talk to, i can see nutz on the board when sitting right at the back la!

pat msg mi eh and BAskET!!!! told mi that she saw her eye candieS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wat's the point of telling mi!!!! SHOW Mi la!!!!!! lOLx

after school~ wanted to go california fittness where i didnt go for like 1 WHOLE months. but Lynn wasnt free again. ended up having my lunch + dinner @IchiBan Boshi at Suntec City with hui xian, xiaoYan, benSon and FLibert and tRAcy. Yummy yUmmyx the nooddle was nice!!!$$$ but the sushi was like KNS la. so small somemore!! Xy rashed to her work place after eating and the rest of us went to shop around and later i've decided to go for PIERCING but i was scared that it would be super painful!!! lucky they where there to accompany mi except for BENSOn who was like so damn..... kept saying that its veri pain.making the 'eeeee' sound -.-

ok so we reached heeren and the 77th street there... choose a pair of ear sticks which are in green. was damn nervous and although Filber kept saying that its not pain and he wanted to pierce another one after piercing with the one on his left ear with his gf. but talk cork onli!! he refused mi when i asked him to pierce with mi!!! hahaha huixian said that the place i was gonna pierce isnt pain at all and i didnt believe her of coz. ok... i sAW the GUN!!!!!!!!!! it was reminding mi of my nightmARE in pri scHool when i accompanied my friend to went for piercing and she actually scREAMed damn loud.

Filber offered mi his hand for mi to hold but i choosed to hug my bag instead. lolx all of them stood infront of mi and just STARED at mi la.. to see wat reaction i was gonna to give after the the shooting of the gun right?!!! -.- GOooooooosh..PangX PANgz! GOoooooooosh o MY.... cOOl and COLd feeling sensations felt. not really that pain. yup yup. shaky shaky hand with FIlbert as i wanted to pierce one on my right ear but i was so strong that i pierced another one on my left ear!! ^^ girly giRley lADey lAdy LOok now!!!!! FAMINE? nopeeeeeeeee, not yet. hahaha

went to Cineleisure for pool After that. hohohohoho as we were walking to our table, unexpectedly we did the samething which was glance around for chio bu and yandao. lolx 1 chio bu and 1 yandao found!!DAMn!!! i was like so Pro until DEssie called mi and after hearing his sad voice -.- and later he msg mi that he was feeling veri upset out of a sudden -.- wt..
i LosE to FIlbER!!! and nearly lose to tRAcy also...it was tracy's 1st time somemore =.= !! ><

hey!!! i bought another new toy!!!! which have this function of voice recording!!! ^^ so cuTE~!!!!!!!!! at 1st i took the wrong one and was so disappointed. so FIlber went to change to the right one for mi. yEah yEAh!!! lUCky lUcky me!! ^^

LYDIa!!!!!! wat a waste that u couldnt join us!! haha!! =X

wat's wrong now?

wat's wrong now? how come everything seems like a mess to mi now. am i being over sensitive or did i over reacted for something which u think its childish?

the tone i speak is veri xia lan. are u 1st day of my friend? how do u link from those dates to this. i am childish but its better than being unreasonable. why do u always act like a soft-heartener at 1st and turn out to be a monster in the end. when i just got over it, u just started it again. why?..
i am childish being over sensitive initially or am i childish being petty now?
i hang up the phone, were u trying to scold mi? becoz u are angry with mi? i dont care. i hang up the phone, i didnt wanna listen anymore, it'll just gets us to nowhere.

u expect mi to say thank you for everything u do for mi, so that then u'll feel being appreciated and feel that all the things u've done are worth it. here it goes.. Thank you for coming all the way from katong to clementi just to look for mi. Thank you for making honey lemon for mi. Thank you for the changes u have made, which is sending mi home and walking slower. Thank you for saying sorry when u left mi on the bus. Thank you for helping mi in my hw. most importantly thank you for loving mi. do u feel that u are totally being appreciated now? do u love mi becoz u wanna feel being appreciated? do u do all the things for mi just becoz u wanna hear mi saying thank you?

u might think that i dun appreciate wat u've done becoz i didnt say thank you, but look, everyone has their individual personalities, u find it veri difficult to hide ur feelings and emotions, but this doesnt mean that i have to show you all my feelings and emotions purposely for u. we share feelings and thoughts but this doesnt mean that i have to tell u all my thoughts. as long as i know what's going on deep inside my heart and i will do the same to u as promised. i mean wat i said ok. if i dun cherish wat i have now, why should i bother to write this.

but one thing, i'm sorry for the entry which i typed yesterday night, its abit harsh. i didnt care about ur feelings b4 typing la. its my fault being over reacted.

sunday

woke up at 4pm today~ wow! shiok!!!! but still got alittle bit running nose and blocked nose` -.-
its a gooooooood chance for mi to rest at home today~yupie!

yeAaaaaah! daRLing waVEs whiTe flAg! so? -.-

gotta catch up my works in school and prepare for the reAL 'school starts' for mi. yup yup! honey moDe mOOd should be over by now`~ ^^ let's HOPE i can be punctual for my lessons from tmr onwards -.- not late for more than 10 mins at least.

since i've decided to join band, i cant afford to waste any of my time anymore -.- WAT TO DO. my passion for music is still there!!! cant run away.
especially when there's yandao and chio bu in the band, muhahha, nah.. i thought of something as i was looking at those ppl... why are they here while they can possibly doing something else like going out to choing and meet up with their friends? why are they spending their time here and listening to the nonsensical crapz of the conductor? if not becoz of band, they will probably not feeling that super stress up and tired, so why are they here, in the band room, holding on to their respective instruments and their onli passion`~ i guess the reason why is kind of obvious. specifically if u love something, just go for it and u will not think any scarifications u made would be a waste, and u'll not expecting anything in return too. especially and most importantly i can always rely on music during my ups and downs. onli passion that will not abandon mi.

i am not a workaholic, but i work for my passion. although there are obstacles like ppl who are much better than mi in flute section now and i THINK i cant never beat them, so the more i should stay in sp band and take up the challenge eh! eh dui!

although the time for darling and i to meet up is definitely gonna be lessen as i moved to cck and joined the band, but lets hold on together, nv let this drift us apart okokokokokokokok? MY BOoooooooooI FRIend~!! =p

hmpf

later den i realised wat's the numbers in ur nick for. hmpf. damn it. u put my bday and one of ur girl friends bday together. nv fool around or mix with ur girlfriend and ur girl friends. jerk. anyway, after all the things i've said, its still the same to u, gf and ur girl friends makes no much difference except u can hold ur gf's hand that's all, and the rest should be the same. i feel that there's no point talking to u anymore.
as i 've promised to myself, i will not get jealous. LOve is not about jealous, love is not about having everything u wish and u want. lOve is about give and take~ love is a just a FOUR letter word afterall. not get jealous huh,
thats gonna be easy, depends on the way u treat mi i'll just take it as i am one of ur girl friends too. maybe more prominent one, thats all.
i cant treat my bf as one of those normal boy friends to mi. so we'll sEE hOw it GOEs..

saturday.

11th june 2005

its weekend finally. tot can get to sleep longer but stupid house owner, called for air-con service this morning at about 12pm!!!! been woke up by mummie and been forced to get out of the bed. -.- cant him call for service when we've move out? hmpf. diao him and kicked this kicked that as i walked passed him! showed my attitude to the land loan to the max. he totally deserves this.

was drawing D&DWT while waiting for deSsie.. aRghhh~!!!! totally cannot make it! it's so ugly and untidy. but what to do?!!! my house has limited space for mi to do my works now, just baRE with it. DArling reached my house and helped mi draw a side ELevAtion of the tootpid image Q2. he said he that he has nv do such tender work even for his own b4`! ARgh... but this D&DWT module is really killing mi.
PT!!! u better let mi pass this peice of work! ><

we went to cck after that and were suppose to eat sushi there, however, we left halfway while i was waiting in the queue and went to west mall. its that crowded anywhere on saturday lah. and didnt manage to have any freshy sushi as it was late den.
went to breadtalk and took us 106 back to clementi. darling suggested to call pat out of a sudden. i was kinda shocked by that too. lolx

sat at the place where weijie and the rest used to sit with mi, dessie's itchy hand wanted to write something, so i suggested to let him write down whatever i said, hey darling, its halfway done, to be continued ok? ^^

gOSh.. totally forgotten about stEve's birthday which was on the 7th JUne!! oopx!!

friday. band`

shooooooo. late for lesson again. 12pm lesson and reached at 3pm. kaoz. today was PT's lesson and attendence will be marked as O for sure! ><
drawing...choing the drawings all the wAAAaie~yeah lecure said that i can draw fast huh, not bad!! of coz laH! 'no CHOICE!!!!" left with one hour onli leh!!! -.-

went for band practice today`!! coz i dun wanna go home so earli that i was just reached school for not more than 2 hours -.-

hmmmmm.. went into the band room and put down my bag in one corner -.- took a flute and set up, sat down at the flute section there and said hi to this girl who i didnt know who is she but know that she's from year 1 also, and kinda friendly, too bad i was sick and tired that didnt initial to talk much.

saw this new comer, a year 1 guy flute player!..hmmm actually have heard of him b4 going for band practice just now.. yeah heard that he's a veri good player.
hmm 1st impression!--> u know la.. not bad looking, so smiled at him. lolx he's friendly too~exchanged of self-introduction. he's a mix malay and chinese. no wonder look like chinese and malay la. lolx so i observed the way he handle his flute and every movement. yeah, like a pro indeed. even have a tunner inside his flute case!!!! damn, i felt stressed -.- and u know wat!!!! he's from SWS (Singapore Winds Symphony)!!! but too bad, i cant remember his name. lolx got to talk to him more during the freshy orientation and somehow i've became the translator for him -.- he's from Multi mEdia Communication i think -.- 16 pointer for o's. staying in.....cant remember the place..hmmm some where near yio chu Kang...

i wonder why... why.. why all the friends i've met are come from the other side of singapore one?? i noticed that west side ppl in Np. and ppl from other sides of sG are in sP instead of Tp, Nyp and Rp. -.- wHy???? ur ppl like to travel so FAr huh.

hmm anyway i was SO 'lucky' and 'suay' again, Tanny appointed mi to sit beside him again!... 1st flute..either super low or super high notes. hell! i didnt even learn all those notes yet. and not onli the notes, there's rythme problem!! super dynamically adagio! almost cant catch up..
this time was even more stressed la! was stucked in between Tanny and the guy who is from SWS!! there were onli 3 of us playing the solo parts. Agitated? DUh! was petrified indeed. Just imagine this, one is one ur left and one is on ur right and both of them were playing so professionally great. u just wont wanna put down ur flute and surrender. although its a torture to urself but its about FACE. F.A.C.E. reputation and impression. lOlx

its Freshmen Orientation CaMp for Band MembERs from Sat to Sunday``~hmmm i am not going` becoz... i'm meeting DArling`. ^^

weijie called when i was on my way home~~ wahahah he told mi that he just finished running for 4 hours and waiting for his turn to bath, cannot smoke in commando at all. cos they are @ the front line. LOLx. GOOD for him Manz. =D

weijie is going in for ns

7th jUNe
yEAda`! deS made mi honey lemon for my sore thoart`^^ it's so sWeet!! eh, i mean the drink was too sweet. lolx tats right, he himself is a sweetie already. was so surprised that he wrote mi a letter. ^^

8th June
3rd month with des. its not my day anyway. went to np and ended up tio ap. nvm.
hope he can be more udnerstanding next time.
was suppose to go out with des after his school. but was so damn freaking sick and didnt want to wander around actually but too bad, wanted to see des.
ade called and said that she's coming to my house as i was on my way to meet des-.- i am not sure if des was pissed with that, but its not what i wanted also, hope he can understand -.-

9th June
sick.

attended the morning lecture and skipped the afternoon one.

met des and acc him to furum for his facial.
late for 20mins and he was trying to get angry with mi.
diu. 1st time got left on the bus by a bf of mine. wth.

went to taka and got my kaleidoscope! yeah!!! finally!!

went to weijie house and slept for about 1 and a half hour until mason came from his work place.
weee met benny and his gf, serene`` benny drove us to west coast there, weijie bought mi my favorite MA yOU jI fAn and ice moutain first and he went to order his fried chicken + fried rice`, mason's fish and chipz, weikai's super top up chicken rice. stanley and his 'auntie' came but were sitting @ another table`. i showed serene and stanley's 'auntie' my kaleidoscopeEe..iYa hmmmmm its abit kiddish la but i like it!! stanley drove us to the mac @ west coast park and waited for goi and alvin. lolz they were thinking of the names for their future children. and for my children who is, if using my surname, it will be GUAN ni bi shi. -.- thx liu weijie.
was kind of sleepy and tired but its the last night that we are gonna have a gathering like that so i kept quiet instead of keep saying that i wanna go home ^^ they dislike serene for being too attitude towards them and they asked mi to sit with her -.- ok..so i had girly talks with serene. talk about brands and qualities again. diu. why not talk about my kaleidoscope ><

so today is the last day le~ girley brother, weijie is going to serve ns later`hmmmmm gonna be ms lonely, will not have un-read msg when i wake up in the morning anymore, will not have a brother to ask mi how's school for mi and things that he can help mi, will not have a brother to tell mi wat to do to prevent myself to get sick and remind mi to take medicine. will not have a brother to ask mi if i am bored whenever i am keeping quiet. will not have a brother to fetch mi to school and send mi home anymore, will not have such a sensible brother who can take care of mi so well anymore, even veri veri minor things -.- will not have anyone out there who can understand mi and accompany mi whenever i need or dun need someone to be there -.- yeah! sometimes dun need. lolx cox i got darling also`~ LOlx
sIa La, as if he's going to leave this world -.- ChOy!

sick

its 9th june today! i am sick and i have a MC but i am not going to skip school. u think i am that good huh? u're wrong, its becoz applying a LOA green form with my MC in the office is damn troublesome.

totally worn out. basically doesnt have enough sleep -.- and why am i having such problem whereby i just cant fall asleep early. -.- generally i am sick becoz of this and feel so tired, specifically i am dying from that.

have been late for classes every morning, be it starts at 8am, 9am, 10am or 12pm. to be more specifc, the moment i step out my house OR wake up every morning is the time my lessons start -.-

celebration of mason's bday =D and farewell party for weijie =(

yupie. uncLe mason's bday celebration was brought forward to yesterday, which was 10 days earlier, before weijie's going into ns next fri.
experiecend quite alot of 1st time yesterday. 4th June 2005

weijie reached my house downstairs at 5.30pm`he's fectching mi with his aprilla bike to meet the rest. i didnt know how to wear a helmet -.- so ok he helped mi. i didnt know how to board the bike... sCARE that the bike will fall. =X ok took about 5 mins figuring how to board onto the bike. nice sitting on his bike` although it was 110km/h max he ride, but it was like so damn fast for mi and he actually slows down in the turnings for my sake, if not i will scREam!

had dinner in lau ba sai. met new friends again; old ex tss ppl like weikai's brother and Rjc graduate like justin. went to party world in orchard after dinner` everybody SANg except aDEline Leong~! i sang 3 songs~!!!! =X weikai and stanley went to buy cake and ...this delicious tiramisu cake was just wasted by....didnt manage to eat at aLl~!!! the last piece which was on my hand was gaven to alvin to take revenge on stanley -.-
left ktv at around 12+ and went to mason's house for some drinking`.

felt so sLeepy at around 3++, its like i have been sleeping less than 5 hours everyday since poly started. jie sent mi home, wait till i closed my doorz 1st and went back to mason's house` wonder wat happened after he went back`-.- although he wasnt drunk after drinking almost half a bottle martell with the empty stomach but he was having serious headache.
i fell on the sofa immediately after closing the door -.- i wasnt drunk, just that i was sO SO so sleePy and felt that my head was abit heavy.

haiz.. guess this will be the last outing with all of them together. god girley brother - weijie is going to serve ns as a commando next fri which is 10th june. without jie, i would not go out with the rest as often as b4 and they would not ask mi to go out as often as jie did too la` coz not veri close to them afterall`.
gonna miss those dayz and pplz``those things we did together and helps from them.

moving out finally

hmmm ppl.. im shifting house to CHUA CHU KANG~! -.- NorthVale
its far from sp
its far from soi lo's house
its unfamiliar to mi
its gonna be not fun
but i have no choice. -.-

getting use to poly life`

lesson started at 1pm today~its combine classes lecture.
tot i would be the latest one but filbert was later than mi. lolz was sitting right at the back alone and couldnt even see a single word from the white boARd la. O sian. Filbert joined mi right at the back latEr after sending his gf to school and we started chatting~ didnt know that he's so chatty, maybe he's being trained from all the talking on the phone session with his gf. Lolx
okieee the lecture was like talking talking infront and we were talking talking amount outselve at the back. half of the class joined in our conversation later and ....~ its 15 mins bREAK~! the 12 of us took our own sweet time walked to fc5 and packed KFc back to the lecture room, it took us about 30mins? well nobody give a damn also. lolx however today is really an unproductive day for mi as i could CATCH nO BAlL during the whole 3 hours of lecture! when i wanted to listen, ppl around mi were just keep talking and talking and the words the lecturer wrote on the board were so freaking small.
-.-
last day to decide wat cca to join..hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

sp..

sP is SO DAMN big! ><
went for sp band practice last night and it was a quite ... one! the band was SO BIG, as in there were so many year 1 students. was sitting at the 3rd flute there with linyun and glancing around.. lolx =X later Tanny asked mi to sit beside him -.- YES! Tanny who was from Shuqun sec Band, 1st flute there. was so damn freaking nervious and strESS sitting beside him -.-
but must admit that he's really a veri veri good and humble player. his vibrato!! WOW! =.= just cant stand it. they songs we played were like so damn damn damn difficult!!! especially the 1st flute.. some high notes were like totally alients to mi. -.- there's this solo part tanny and i played together.. 1st note-->LonG note, it was like PhEw~in tune!! heehEE..but laTEr my rythme was out -.- so i stopped quickly for any futher embarrassment! o.O hmmm sight reading onli, nothing is there to be embarrassed about also right =X
yEah had a wonderful night hearing the sound of band once again~ but i am still considering if i wanna join band. and tmr is SOcIAL DANce practice. hee hee most importantly, there are really yandaoS in the band, even year 1!!! from saxophone, trumpets, percussion and euphonium~ ^^

hmmmm i am starting to like my classmates and enjoy hanging around with them. we are quite united as a half-class. -.-
lEsson started at 9am today and i onli left my house @ 9.05am and waited for the bus for about 5 mins!..reached school and didnt know where is the building W5 -.- so went around searching for it and found it finially, but was late for about 40 mins? went in and sat down quietly, was busy looking for the most important thing -->the paper for attendenace marking lolx lucky my friend kept it for mi`~! after for about 20 mins, the lecture said that since its our 1st lesson, there's no tutorial and practical and so we may go home! i was like.. wtf! its 10am and i just reached leh!! but there were a make up briefing in 1pm! 3 hours of break. -.- went to fc4 with half of the class ppl. met eddie outside of fc3`~ went to sports hall to view all the CCAs booths and signed up for SOCIAL DAnCE and HIPhOp DANCe. its..like..all my friends in my class signed up for hiphop la -.-

ARgh~~~~ should i join the band?! its kinda HARD to quit once i join -.- and time and commitments is needed from mi once again -.- and band practices normally end at 10+++pm!!!

liar

guys are liars. always doing the opposite of wat they said. yuck. i'll not have faith in u, i'll not have confidence in u, u'll not have my trust. and u bloody hell dun have to tell mi after u're done with ur flirtatious act pls. i'll get jealous and i'll ignore u, thats all. dumb

went for sp band practice today and..will talk more about it next time. i am so tired!!! i wanna SLEEP NOW!