Did I miss my dream chance at fame?

Listen to the heart, it can lead you on the right path, hopefully.
I know you're wondering if you're doing the right thing,
wondering who i am,
And so many other things.
There's a lot of chatter inside this weary head of mine at this moment,
Giving mi conflicting advices, turning away from the truth by asking for more time.
what am i suppose to do? TELL ME!


its about the band if you are wondering what am i being emo about. no ppl can help, because no ppl can understand what am i worrying about, how am i feeling, its a mixture of many types.


i feel the end is near, its cold
i taste the end is near, its bad
i hear the end is near, its awful
i see the end is near, i hate it.


杀了我吧。 -.-

Faidhi is delaying my new updates, so i've decided not to wait for his pictures anymore! i dont look good in those pictures anyway. =p


went to town yesterday, meet pat pat and my new friend, xinyu. lolx
i wandered around town for 40 mins while waiting for des who came so late!
we had super early dinner at novena, he gave mi a surprise by booking the whole place. wow.
i'm kidding. it was early, thats why customers haven come yet.


went back wisma and looked for liting, faidhi and sheryl(new friend) who were still having their dinner there! nvm this is not the main thing, muhahaha
we took cab to ACS Baker. OMG this secondary school looks like a shopping mall to mi from the multi storey car park and when entered the school, it looks like university comes with a church to mi. its a secondary school?! Tanglin Seconday is just a little bit smaller thou. I'M KIDDING.


anyway, yeah went there for NTU Symphonic Band's Reel In! concert. i have the thought of asking liting for the ticket refund during the 1st half of the concert, it was so dead -.- and poor liting kept acting so enthu throughout, just for the conductor , Mr Takehiro Oura.
afterwhich we spent like 30 an hour where to have our supper and finally we settled down at starbucks.


oh i am in a dilemma. thanks to liting and faidhi. -.-

what a happening day today!



woke up bu calls and sms in the morning! it was really morning, hmm 9+am? but i onli slept at 3+am the night b4 :(


met up with amanda and i was onli late for 7 mins! what a great achievement! ^^
we had lunch at billy bombers and things started to happen one by one when we went shopping. 1st we got stopped by a guy from teenage magazine and he asked us 'What do u think about NS?'
what a bewildering question on us, we onli see ah ping ge can, how would we know what's in ns. haha.
anyway, we gave him nonsense and they took our pictures.


after much of walking, we rested our legs at Can Cafe for late high tea. its more of like a photo taking session. ^^





brief introduction of my dear friend:

this is Amanda Tan, my sweet other half since primary 5 (going 8 years already! ^^) First time appearing in this blog thou, simply we didnt meet for TOOOOO long. She looks like a mixed blood babe and she is made up of bamboo sticks! i'm so jealous =p


we headed to city link after Can Cafe and this girl met her ex in his working place. OMG he looks incredibly disgusting, lol would i be cursed if he reads my blog too? who cares.
disgusting because he left his girlfriend when she was sick and needed him the most!


anyway, we got stopped again for a Weekly Women's magazine event, it was collecting kisses from the women and for girls to give a perfect kiss stain on a card. well..z my kiss was ugly and looked kinda unbalanced to mi, simply because my lips arent thick enough.


we also met this butch who was so biatch that she talked so damn damn damn loud over the phone and she shouted at amanda's ears directly from behind when we were on the escalator can. the reason why this butch is so idiotic is simply because she's not a chinese, and also not a malay. probably it can be due to they are still using infra-red thats why reception was that good.


happening day eh? i've got a new blouse!! couple blouse with amanda's and a new big heart shape lollipop! ^^


time to turn in. sweet dreams everyone.

i'd be on my bed now if not because of the eye mask! i need lots of masksss for my panda eyes!!! :(



met up with xiapei tonight, we spent the whole night in k-box @ cine! yeah, just the both of us to ktv again.
oh we had so much fun that we laughed most of the time, even while singing. since our throats were not functioning well, we sang crazy songs, we laughed extremely loud when it came to the song 'Ye ShangHai' (what a memorable song for the 60s right).

i had this urge of applying for membership and i did!


i'm so sleepy! i miss my bed! i wanna sleep! i'm kinda dizzy as well, due to car sick, blame it on the cab driver who is not a chinese, he even laughed at mi for dunnoe the way home!! but b4 i could open my eyes and looked out of the window, he had already drove passed the exit! !@%!#@!^!#


anyway, i hope tmr comes faster, simply because i'm meeting amanda! she must be super excited too ^^

dragged myself outta the bed at 11am+ today, for Faidhi!! for the flute scores actually. hahaha


life is getting bored after the last paper yesterday. had enough of you tubing finally and my eyes got so tired because of that! other ppl in different courses and poly will have their last paper this friday. ^^ but JC ppl in S6 will be having their prelims soon as well, forbid from disturbing them. :(
anywal, life is back to a blank sheet of paper which waitting to be filled again.


tried out the scores that Faidhi(what a difficult name to spell =p) passed mi today and my airy tones suck to the core pls. sobs.
got kinda tired after swimming today, hope that my muscles will be alright when i wake up tmr.

ppl show sights of not interested by never even bother to ask in the first place, have u realised yet?
so, doubts have all cleared now. Deny it if you like, but down in the depths of each and every one of us dwells a freak.
let it go, i'd say;
be awake from those dreams, i'd say;
love yourself more, i'd say;


ppl who doesnt understand what on earth i am talking about, pls dun ask mi, i'm typing nonsense just to make myself sleepy thats all.


adios, its time.

GOOD MORNING EVERYONE!! ^^
you must be thinking that i am crazy for waking up so early. look! its 8.28am!
nopE! i aint crazy!!
but i am kinda MAD for not sleeping yet! and worse, i am still hyper! ^^ lalalala~


so my day still stays in saturday, woke up at 4pm and online in msn for awhile, erm, i am online most of the time but yea, chatted in msn for while den went out to meet my DARLING XIA PEI! i'm so happy to see her and really glad that i had her to accompany mi for getting my new dress, new pair of shoes and a new bag. ^^ i know she was with her bf and she wanted to meet him for dinner together with mi, but i will not be comfortable being a light bulb so ended up i accompanied her for dinner and matthew, my neighbour had reached blah blah blah blah. i just realised that i accompanied xiapei for her dinner and i have not had my dinner until NOW! is this the reason i an feeling high? HAHA.
anyway, the red bag is the main thing i wanted to get! no brand, not materialistic, just own prefernece, i think its quite style. ^^
my sense of style is not as bad as desmond lee. oh well, he hasn't say anything to hurt mi yet because he hasn't seem the new items i bought, so just in case he says something to hurt mi again, which i believe he surely will. ^^


watched 'Click' with matthew in Lido after shopping with xiapei, quite a nice show but surely, lido is quite a lousy place to watch movies as compare to other cinemas out there nowadays. so yeah, blah blah blah, some upgrading works need to be done. YEAH!


took a cab home after the movie and the taxi driver was so cute, he's the 1st tazi driver that offers both of us Sweet, which is fruit plus.^^


OH, by looking out of the window and across the swimming pool. through the other long windows, i just realised the gym is full of ppl exercising there now. wow they are hard working people indeed and to think about it, i used to be one of them okie, and now, to think furthur, i am really starving already.


adios, food hunting time.

bad things come smoothly when u are feeling down.


Took cab to bbdc and taxi driver went the wrong way after failing the final theory test again, realised that i brought out cash onli when wanted to top up my membership card, so gotta queue up and the miss who served mi goes -.- "actually we have stopped allowing ppl top up by cash in April 2006 blah blah blah........................." den finally book a re-test and practice session.
took cab back to lot1 and b4 that, 2 cabs drove off infront of mi b4 i board the cab, its either the drivers didn't see mi or my face was worse than charcoal that scared them off.


i want to complain so much, i feel like crying so much and maybe, i need a hug veri much! well, theres someone i can always complain whatever bad things happened on mi to my mum, but i cant possibly cry infront of her and asked for a hug, its just mi at this age, i wont cry infront of her and make her worry about mi, sad with mi. letting her know that i am angry is ok i think because she'd always give mi alaughes it off reaction.


i dun need a shoulder, because i have shoulders. i just need a pair of listening ears.
don't be mistaken, i aint saying that i am lonely, because i am kinda used to it and well, kind of enjoying too.
what am i talking about is that i've realised a few things, nope nope, i've ascertained a few things.
its a familiar feeling that i'm having.
absence, like always.
put up a brave front as usual.


i dont need anyone's sympathy, becoz i am not blogging to ask for sympathy, i am blogging because i've got nothing to do, so writting something to update with the veri emotional moment of mine.
pardon me for whatever.


good thing, this is still under a manageble situation of mine, just some drinks will do.

i don't know whats wrong with mi now, i cant sleep until it hits almost 7am theses few days! -.-


i think i am kinda addicted to taiwan 偶像剧 recently and i just couldnt wait to watch finished the whole show once i started watching even knowing that the show wont run away if i take a break or take a nap in between, i just want to know what's gonna happen next! hohoho i watched 2 drama series in 3 days can!! both have got 30 episodes and 40 mins for each episode. of coz i skipped the boring parts. hahahaha
恶作剧之吻 & 深情密码，one super omg sweet drama and the other one so super saddening drama.
watched parts of 微笑Pasta too, this new drama is onli uploading 1 epi a week. -.- cant wait, must rent its vcds after exam!!
anyway, my study period is like holiday to mi, didnt touch my notes at all until tonight! i must stop youtubing and stuffs for tmr till friday! 我可以的啦。=X


went to plaza singapura yesterday to get the flute stuffs, the scores for 100 pop songs are damn ex can, total 52 bucks for scores that i nv will used to be playing, its not worth buying, yea, stupid act of mine.


and i regret meeting Mr.des!!!! i was so pissed off with him, really. His volume when critizing ME in the PUBLIC is NOT soft at all, it was DAMN LOUD in fact, probably he was wearing one side of his stupid nano earpiece, the train was in a total silence and even the idiot ones also can sense that ppl kept quiet because they were listening to wat he was saying!!
million of small pieces broken from my heart =.=
yes, he apologised for that and the GOOD thing is i am KIND enough to forgive him and besides the critizims i got from him, he gave mi this bouquet of handmade flowers. nice, sincerity that counts right. -.-
afterall, he's just a super straight-forward idiot that onli realised what went wrong after saying things in his mind.



heart sharp kisss lipssss_^^

stop asking mi why am i always at home on saturday night okie!
why must i be out on saturday and saturday night? it is not a fixed day for dating, and it can be a day for resting at home! the fact is that i dont have any date ma! wat to do -.-


thou i was been 'locked'(my mum and her friends was having a small gathering in the living room and) in the room for the whole night doing nothing except lying on the bed and staring our of the window, kinda sick of facing the com even thou there are so many things to do online like YOU TUBE! but my tire eyes told mi not to look at the com. ): there was this group of ppl having party downstairs and they were so high all night, cheering and shouting non-stop. -.-
for one second i wanted to go down and join them, knowing that there are so many ppl and guess they would probably thought i am their friends' friend or somthing. wahahahaha


pardon me for that stupid thought. i was really bored (:
i cant be staying at home all days, my butt will get bigger and bigger if i dun walk around yea?
i need to get saliva clothes, silver clothes, powder paper and probably a tuner for the flute! tmr, i'll go! ^^

CT and measurement papers are down!!! WOohoo! 3 more papers to go!
Property Maintainence Management, Construction Project Management 1 and Finance & Accounts!


had lunch at Crystal Jade at Jurong Point after CT paper, waheh! i was starving then and who knows theres this pig who was even more hungry!! the stupid 'indonesian' desmond.


wah seh! my flute has arrvied finally!! the time for delivering from Amerca is considered damn fast!
and it came together with the dress i ordered from 'Where Dreams Come True' webby, thou i'd waited for 3 weeks already!! stilll kinda excited upon recieving my new dress! ^^


have been watching the dvds, 恶作剧之吻!! woohoo, the leading actress is so cute, but likes to cry TOO MUCH and OMG the leading actor 郑元畅, is so perfect in the show, IQ 200, rich, handsome, tall, capable and manly gentlement, isnt that my type? muhahahaha XD


ya ya ya i'm dreaming, haa!

oh ya! recieved a msg from xiapei this morning at 7+ am -.- and when i turned over after reading the sms, i saw a WOMAN who's lying beside mi and looking at mi with that curly hair dyed RED!!


well well, thats my MUMMY! she has came back from hk in the mid night of the day b4! lol lol den i was kinda awakened by that scare and said quite loudly ' YOU CAME BACK ALREADY ah?!?!? SCARED ME!!'
she said she got called mi but i was already sleeping soundly. lolx -.-


pictures again, this time round, 90% of them are taken by my mummy!!
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3 quarters :






a shirt:



bajamas :



cant see properly yea? too small? lolx nvm !! not selling them away so its only for mi to see clearly!! =p
yeah as we know that the trend now is the dolly dresses and blouses, my mummy didnt get mi any of those!! nvm, i can buy them the next time i am going back! i think she didnt even have the time to go shopping when she's so busy catching up with her friendssssssssss!

YAwnnnn!
wahheehh!
its early that i woke up at this time today!!
GOOD morning! ^^


had my 2 papers yesterday! CRS, agrumentative essay and CP paper.
essay was alright, coz it was how i wanted to reflect about One Litre of Tears!
and
..i am prepared to take sub paper for CP! its so KNS.


Amanda has adminted to the hospital today, for a few days and she's staying in one beded room can! rich tai tai. lolx gonna miss her!!!


fireworks that you want to miss NO MORE!!

Date/Day: 11 August 2006, Friday
Time: 2100 hours
Team: Team New Caledonia


Date/Day: 12 August 2006, Saturday
Time: 2100 hours
Team: Team France


viewing areas include the Padang, Esplanade Park, Marina Promenade, Marina Centre, Marina South and Kallang Basin

good morning!
i am still feeling so sleepy can! -.-


met up with my darling xia pei, evon and kakly yesterday night. its been long since we all last meet up! but except maine couldnt make it ):


we settled our dinner at Bienveune Village which is located at the basement of Heeren. its exactly like Marche.
den went to city hall and look for xiao yan jie, hahaha she was so pissed off with her customers then that she said 'KA NA SAI!' when she saw mi la. -.-'


have been watching dramas in you tube theses 2 days~!~!~
a drama that we must watch is One Litre of Tears!!! you will probably give a litre of tears while and after watching it.


yeAh which also means that i didnt study for the past few days, don't worry i am gonna start studying today, coz i dun wanna fail and today is the last day i can study b4 tests tmr! haha

its been long since i last update
its been long since i been to town again
its been long since i am so fed up!

nothing interesting happened in my life for these few days, even during the chinese velantine's day! :(
Went for interview with evon for motolora promoter this evening, the office was so messy and really so messy and small, but the person in-charge was not bad, he was friendly. he was rather worried that we will go back to be sony ericsson promoters when Singtel has descided that they want back promoters. well, it all depends on the situation, my previous agency might not want the old batch of promoters or my previous agency will not be taking charge of this project anymore. Anyway, base on the salary and person-in-charge and office location...i'd prefer... o nvm.


its been long since i been to town again during these frantic days i am having from school and from the data Entries forms. Yet, we didnt walk around ):
all we did was just had our dinner at sakae sushi. long queue and all.. bromidic!


why am i so fed up when its not that time of the month yet? its because of all these Freaking DATA ENTRIES!!! Grrrrrrr. its making mi more and more and more lifeless besides the hectic life i get from school! i am so almost half dead, so boring typing all those stupid replica survey forms into the computer, and u know what? some ppl's hand-writing are just so intoreable! and when the data entries were onli given to mi a week ago that i will have to submit by today!!!!!!!! nv ever will i agree to do such thing again.