2 more days to IBM

this is not a DEAD blog!
its i have nothing interesting to blog about. lolx
2 more days to IBM. and the flute section is not slacking!!! really, its not.
we have evidence :

the blackie ear rings we all have!


THe girley ROckie BAnD


Tanny : how much?
Peirong : eh.. how much u willing to give?
K'maing : hey!! come in come in!! dun just see. =X

its teacher's day celebration for tss tmr!!! anyone going back??????

super sleepy

usually ppl complain about how tired their day was and i am gonna complain about it differently today. I AM SO SUPER TIRED! yeapz!

IDEA was cancelled but went to school earlier for IDEA discussion. that how on my classmates are. -.- ECT later and as usual, didnt get anything into my head from the lecturer, instead stared into space throughout the 3 hours lecture. =.=
did stared at the phone abit but kept it inside my bag later as it onli brings disappointment to mi. i dunnoe what i want, but its definitely more than a simple msg from my bf and i didnt even receive a single msg.

went to MaxMedia and returned the phones after school today, took one more uniform from jimmy and met sarah, the manager. not scary..just eh.. she looks and talks like ms tank, one of the english teachers in tanglin sec.
went back to school and meet up with the flautists for dinner.

was so sleepy during sectional just now! maybe becoz of the humid place we were at. -.-
it was the last sectional to concert day anyway.

1 more week , 1st sept, to IBM concert. 2 more weeks, 8th sept, to alvin's book in day; to my 6th month with the so called bf, to my study break day.

KNS. why is my brithday always fall on exam or test day one... it always been like that in sec school and its gonna be the same in poly huh! HMPf.

cranky and lonely

i didnt wanna update, basically dun have the mood to.
yes and XY requested mi to update. 1St time Orh. miss her so much!

i'm a little cranky and a little lonely.
come to think about it..
a morning call, a call after school and a call b4 sleep is all i have in my relationship in normal days.
the no. of sms i received from different friends were so much more than which from him.
i received 0 sms from him today.
i am little splenetic and a little cheerless.
well that's about it.

realised that i would have this tendency to turn to him whenever i have any problem. however, he isnt there this time. and he cant do anything even if he's there.

furthermore, he wont be there for mi any time any where anymore soon. haiz..

something i've lost today

its totally and definitely not my day today!!!

hmmmmmm lost something today.

friendship is one thing but i dun really care as i didnt even have the intention to be close with them. had tried to ask wat are they up to yes and they dun wanna say, so i should not do anything further too.

however, basic manners should be remain in oneself no matter what, when ppl did something for you, freaking h*** please remember to say thank you.

thought that my key went missing and later found out that it was my brother who had taken the key... which i left it on the door after opening the door. he wanted to teach mi lesson but it was after all my mother's scoldings -.- kns

wanted to go for band practice and get the baggages i have out of my head but couldnt as i was stucked at home due to the losing of key incident! -.-

did something today that i know i will definitely regret sooner or later. but let destiny and fate decide if its worth doing it.

sleepy

had lots of fun working with different hp brands promoters yesterday.

was so punctual for school today, yeah! 1st time!!!!! but i slept throughout all the lessons. so i rather late for school and be attentive during class next time.

bad day as i feel that its time to say goodbye to the unity in our class. cant deny wat the earlies said was right that its hard to find ppl who are as on as you in poly, maybe a few and the rest are usually veri bastard one and mama child. veri different from secondary school friends.
anyway, i should not give a damn about it. they are just passer-by in my 3 years poly journey. all that i need is just 1 or 2 close friends in class and after class, i will have other friends.

realising that i have been meeting more and more friends ever since i entered poly, from my course it self, from band, from work.. meeting ppl from Sp, NTU, NUS, SIM, Np, NYp, private uni and even purely working one..o.. and small boy from st patrick who is having prelims now..lol
i like the feeling of exposing to the society and meet more different kind of ppl, ppl who can take jokes one, the petty one, the fun type, mature and humorious type, i gotta learn how to differeniate all these kind of ppl by face or by 1st conversation with them.

boring days

had IDEA yesterday. was late for about 40 mins yes and the lecturer maked mi as present. he had to becoz i've received warning letter for attendence problem for his module. most importanly i considered myself was quite early for all his lessons. lolx and so he told mi to go earlier next time so that he can give mi the 10% attutide and attendence mark. lolx
ECt&P. i swear i really wanted to pay attention in class but i just couldnt help falling asleep and so i slept. =.=
went to band room after that and had 'meeting' at fc3, ate soursoup, tanny's treat. =x
sectionals for about 3 hours and was really wore out, damn shag! thks alvin and stanley for the fetch.

woke up quite early today, lucky that i had morning call from dessie messie lousie as i didnt set any alarm clock for this morning. yes i couldnt help to fall asleep again yesterday night. well, didnt go to school today becoz lydia is not feeling well, so no point for mi to go as well becoz my partner for the tutorial is nt around. guess it was becoz she stayed at her bf house till too late yesterday night huh! =p
stayed at home and trying to finish up my drawings, it really sucks.
so bored so tired so sleepy! yes and i am not exhausted yet.

something went missing today, u might find it ridiculous if i tell u wat is it.
its my smile! i dun feel like smiling at all today. i dunnoe why.

where is my dessie messie lousie qiqi???

ywaAAAAAAAaaaan. too bored, too shag, too empty.

YAo YAo came to my house just now^^ helped mi kill some of my empty time at least.
hohohoho cooked RAMEN together! daMNIT!!!!! its so SUpER DILIciOUS!! regretted give her more!! wahahahaha Manz.. a J1 studet is still playing neopet!! -.- she's back to her school for band now~ and its time for mi to go back school for band too.

this is taken from ruby's blog:

I'm now super annoyed cos I also remember something else that happened today. Helen made such a big deal (i.e. announcing it to the class) when I replied to her in Chinese (she talked to me in Chinese first) and when I explained I had been speaking Chinese on and off for a while (during the lesson), she said that she'd rather I don't speak it. Ok, so her Chinese is MUCH better than mine, but I don't go demanding that she stop using English. Or maybe she thinks I have a weird slanging ang moh accent when I speak Chinese (of which I'm unaware of and if I do have one, I don't think it's that bad). I wanted to say something rude back at her, but common sense made me think otherwise, plus she's the type to argue without using solid reasons (most times she'll say that she did nothing wrong and that the other party started it with the reply).

this is the comment i made in her blog:

hey girl, relax. 1st of all i did not demand u to stop speaking chinese, yes and i said i rather u speaking english to mi as i am used the way u are to mi which is speaking english, i find it abit weird when u spoke chinese to mi as u nv did that b4, in fact we dont talk much in class too, thats why. yes and u are saying that ur english is much better than mine indirectly which i agree with you but who cares wat language we use, as long as we can communicate. and i am not the type of person u think i am, i dun argue to ppl who doesnt have any sense in their head. so dun assume that u know mi well. well, i think u have mistaken wat i mean as i do joke around and i didnt know that u are kind of person who cant take joke. no more jokes on u then. relax. no offence alright.

thats the max politeness i can show in making comments in her blog, but that doesnt mean i will be the same in my own blog. bloody hell fucking bimbo who doesnt have any common sense in her head claims common sense made her think otherwise.

when did i demand u stop speaking chinese. wth. you are accusing mi and insulting mi. dun jugde ppl with ur fucking goldfish eyes, use ur brain if u have one in ur head alright. dun come and claim tat u know mi well by saying "she's the type to argue without using solid reasons" but the fact is that i dun argue with ppl like u who doesnt seem to have any sense of right or wrong and even common sense. and think about it, why do i have always have solid reason is becoz u know that u are being unreasonable if u were to say something rude to mi. everyone who was around us know that i am just kidding. and i didnt announce to the whole class, i was speaking and ppl around mi can hear, did i ever shout or something? pls, watch the words u use bimbo.

you are bent on this kind of character towards things and there's no point talking sense with u at all. understand?

and u go on with "(most times she'll say that she did nothing wrong and that the other party started it with the reply)." hey bitch, u dun have the bloody right to use 'most times' as i believe i talked to u less than 10 times in this 3 months and pls, would this make u probably know mi well? NO, u DONT. so dun assume.
i was saying that 'eh ruby 1st time speak to mi in chinese! but i rather u speak english' yes if u are the type of person who cannot take any joke at all, u might think its an offence, sorry ok. but wat i mean was i am too used to u speaking english in class all the time rather than speaking chinese on and off. that doesnt mean that i am demanding u to stop speaking chinese. i
didnt even mention about asking u to STOP speaking chinese la bimbo. u claim that ur english is much better than mine and why would u misinterpreted my simple sentence like this? is ur brain in ur ass or are u out of ur mind.

thats all about it, i made explanation to u in ur blog and if u still dun understand, then TOO bad. it would be just wasting of my time explaning to u who have this freaking irritatable charateristics.

shag

yesterday was my 1st day of work, the team leader told mi to go down to suntec for the samsung roadshow when i reached sim lim square! i was on time! hehs. yes and it was my 1st day of work and they put mi to road show lah! lucky there is someone with mi. steve. he's friendly and wlling to help mi. even helped mi bought lunch! ^^ both of us took a cab down to suntec then and i was blur about wat to do la!
basically i know nuts about notebooks then and kinda lucky to have the helps from the ppl there. veri fortunately, i sold 2 x20-c004! ^^
knocked off at 8.30pm and waited for the elderlis at the starbucks located at raffles city while theres one outside of suntec. stupid mi walked extra distance! my legs were so damn super tired la! had dinner at the NyDc at suntec. watched THE MAID. WOW. no comments about the show!

today, 2nd day of work! got ready to go to sim lim square and jimmy called mi said wanna transfer mi to sony ericsson. i want to work under samsung!!!!! the uniform is so much nicer la!
yes and sony ericsson hp is good. ok nvm..took a cab down to bugis junction and waited for jimmy, the manager agent at MAc. kns! he threw away my large lemonate juice when i went to change my uniform. i drank less than 10ml can. hmpf! again. was blur about wat to do when report to the hello shop beside bugis junction. know nuts about everything again ans slow i picked up. made friends immediately. hahaha liping for panosonic and jamie for motorola. fortumate both of them were there to help mi and willing to explain to mi about the aspects about my phoness.
estimated sold products was 6. 1 k700i and 5 k750i!
super lucky^^ yes and i am so freaking shag.

GIRLS!
Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up the phone on him, who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends. Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you. Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her."

menses

my DEAREST amanda asked mi to update. so here i am! =X
late for lesson for just half ah hour today!! pheeeew~!!!! lecture marked mi as absent finally!! wahahaha

after building science was law make up lesson, well.. i couldnt help to fall asleep again.. i dunnoe why!?!?!?!?!? lecturer is really boring -.-
went to com lab and continue with the idea project. damn my stomach was so pain damn, due to my auntie's disturbance. it was really so DAMN pain can. it was 3pm plus then and i decided to stop watever i was doing and go home! DesSie's lesson was suppose to end at 5pm,
yes and he came our of the lesson half way and took a cab from his school to pick mi up at clementi and den sent mi home! i am so kinda touched. auntie seemed to be scared away by the sudden of happiness came by at that moment. HOWEVER!!!!!! STUPID HIM, by saying something like 'my gf has menses pain and i need to find her, sorry to leave halfway' he's SO STUPID. he CAnt just say that i am sick or wat, he's so HONEST> OMG. kns

oYA! my friends said that des look like a flirt. wahahaha. poor boy! i tot that u are one also but u proved mi wrong and it doesnt matter wat others say becoz u are not their boyfriend, u are mine. ^^

our 5th month just over and he still own mi the ppt slidings and his proposal for the ling pai !!! hurry up eh!!

friday band-xc's bday

today is x.c.'s bday!!
went to bandroom straightaway after the discusion of the project with my classmate. russshed the bDAy for xc with the rest. lolx yes and the whole flite section was late for dun band practice. we had our dinner at kfc quick like mad, rushed down to the bandroom and veri quicky set up and joined in the warm up. lolx celebrated x.c.'s bday after band practice and ate the chocolate cheese cake from nydc together outside of the bandroom. had an enjoyable chatting session. together gave her a $170 levis voucher.
lolx -.- the more crazy thing we did was to hold the conference phonecall as a whole section at 11.58pm and sang a bIRthday song to x.c. together at 12am. haha its so weird singing a birthday song to the phone at late night. -.- lolx it was damn fun anyway.

tried hard to put up a brave front.

seriously and terribly, i am afraid that history would repeat itself again. i dun wanna cry over things like that again. its been like that over the past 2 years and i dun wanna things turn out to be the same with different person. i really do not want it.
tried to put up a brave front and the cheeky cheerful me today as i didnt talk about it to anyone. i need time to think, all by myself.
by letting someone come into ur heart might be letting that someone to get the power in destorying u. its so true.

i just cant understand why just the 20 sentences i wrote when i was being left alone and bored could get such a big reaction from you. i was thinking that u might laugh over it or say something funny in return? i find that it is so ridiculous for u to get pissed off and u didnt even bother to turn ur head to say bye. u said that u feel insignificant to mi as i didnt call back to apologize when i already explained to u that i didnt mean it in the 1st place. should a guy be so petty? worse of all, this relationship is gonna be worthless for u because of this and it leads us to this situation now.

is the past 5 months that meaningless to u

i am disappointed and i am lost with the empty mind and broken heart indeed.
i feel that wat i have done and the changes i've made are worthless too. i feel that i am insignificant to u too. u are telling mi to be to the same old mi again, u are telling mi to be strong and independent again, are u?

It aches mi somehow, its gonna be damn pain going through this again. damn it.

I seldom think about my limitations, and they never make me sad. Perhaps there is just a touch of yearning at times; but it is vague, like a breeze among flowers.
a man who dont even bother to turn his head and say good-bye to you is as good as a stranger.

You can choose to be happy or sad and whichever you choose that is what you get. No one is really responsible to make someone else happy, no matter what most people have been taught and accept as true. choose to be positive or negative.

u said u are somehow going to a direction where it makes u think that this relationship is not worth for u to spend ur time on. i couldnt help to break into tears after hearing it.

u said u feel that u are insignificant to mi and wat can i say? but still, actions speak louder than words. someone had proved mi this, i was really touched. yes and i am, still here proving u my love for you without any words from my mouth.

u proved mi right, love can be pain, and dont u ever try to show mi how pain it can be, becoz i know how pain love can be and i dun wanna back to the pain i had once b4.

u told mi not to hurt u, u told mi that u were scare of been cheated and i promised i will not.
worse of all, u told mi this relationship is going to be worthless. how am i suppose to react, and how am i going to accept this?

i am not using my blog to scold u, this is my personal blog, i have the right to type whatever i wanna be expressed out. if u are afraid of how ppl will look at u after readingmy entries, den stop visting my blog. curse mi all you want in ur own blog.

interview

reached school at 10am! 2 hours late and quickly sat down and tried to catch up with the rest, lesson started with 3D drawing with microstation today, it was fun! hoho
i asked the lecturer to recommend mi.. u know... recommend for distinction. =X lolx and he said 'how can, u..' haiz once again he pleases mi to go earlier for his lesson. but i've tried my best to be early as this was wat i told him. lolx

met eddy and he brought mi to this company called MaxMedia i think at red hill for a part time job interview just now. hmmmmmmmmmm it was bad bAd BAD!! the person said that i am rather quiet!! he said that my answers to his questions were veri striaght to the point and he requires mi to talk more. for example, wat's my interests and i said 'music', thats all. den he asked, 'and?' and i said 'music' again. -.- i wasnt nervous at all, i was SHY... my foot. i was shAg. lesson ended at 5pm today! i know he expect mi to talk alot as i am proposing the position of promoter and i know wat to talk one la pls. -.-yes and i was really quiet afterall. one good thing he said about mi was that lucky i am cute enough 0.O =X it might be in the way that i talk la becoz i am PRETTY not CUTE okayz! HAHAHAHAhahahaa

drunk shit

back to school yesterday.. although i was late for 15 mins only for the damn morning law lecture, yes and i couldnt help kept falling asleep once i sat down in the class. its tutorial after that but i couldnt go becos i went for band. kaoz later then i know the rehersal starts at 2pm and we were told to be in band room by 12.45pm -.- i should have go for tutorial since i didnt listen in lecture huh!! ><
rehersal for NDOC was so boring, we waited for the whole afternoon to just play 1 and a half song nia which is the jap graffiti 4 and national anthem. -.-
afterwhich, met des and watched 'She's on duty'! he rated it 3/5 stars and i'd rate it 3.5/5 stars! =p
went back home and drank a bottle of thirty three. turned into a drunken shit and vomitted for the 1st time since 10 over years.

ok i am suppose to be in school right now and i am waiting for the girl called Lydia!!!! to get her ass out of her house! lolx