tried hard to put up a brave front.

seriously and terribly, i am afraid that history would repeat itself again. i dun wanna cry over things like that again. its been like that over the past 2 years and i dun wanna things turn out to be the same with different person. i really do not want it.
tried to put up a brave front and the cheeky cheerful me today as i didnt talk about it to anyone. i need time to think, all by myself.
by letting someone come into ur heart might be letting that someone to get the power in destorying u. its so true.

i just cant understand why just the 20 sentences i wrote when i was being left alone and bored could get such a big reaction from you. i was thinking that u might laugh over it or say something funny in return? i find that it is so ridiculous for u to get pissed off and u didnt even bother to turn ur head to say bye. u said that u feel insignificant to mi as i didnt call back to apologize when i already explained to u that i didnt mean it in the 1st place. should a guy be so petty? worse of all, this relationship is gonna be worthless for u because of this and it leads us to this situation now.

is the past 5 months that meaningless to u

i am disappointed and i am lost with the empty mind and broken heart indeed.
i feel that wat i have done and the changes i've made are worthless too. i feel that i am insignificant to u too. u are telling mi to be to the same old mi again, u are telling mi to be strong and independent again, are u?

It aches mi somehow, its gonna be damn pain going through this again. damn it.