If only....I can lead a Simple life
If only....Someone to love me deeply
If only....Angels to watch over me
If only....No broken heart
If only....People to remember me where ever i am
If only.... time can be reversed
If only....I know what love is
If only....Love don't hurt
If only....Bad memories can be erased
If only....tears don't fall down unknowingly down my cheeks
If only....someone can heal my wounds
If only....I am in a fairyland
If only....i can live in my sweetest dreams
If only....I hadn't grown up

GES 2005

having been working for this Goble Enterprise in Singapore 2005(GES) in the past 3 days. well, bad sales, in fact, no sales for mi. ppl who were there were basically to gain product and new technology knowledges. met so many GOLDEN TURTILES (jin gui) in the fare like all those CEOs, ED (excutive directors), managers from those R&D and investment companies in local and from overseas.

the newly security device from the company i was attached to (Fast and Safe Technology Pte. Lte) was named EasySafe, it protects not onli ur condidential documents in ur pc, it also have this function to protect your whole PC or laptop.

1st day of work in GES, 27th sept, tuesday.
that CK. high heels sucks to the core, it was flat without any cuttons below and my feets hurt like HELL after standing for 7 hours!
went to parkway and find dessie after work and his wee wee mate directed mi the wrong way! WEll.. took cab to parkway den and i didnt even know which part of parkway was i!! the worse thing was that my phone wasnt with mi and so i found this bloody public phone which accepted my 10cents coin BUT couldnt call out until i inserted another 1 dollar coin!!! theres not refund after the less than 1 min call!! ><
so met des and his friends finally and had my dinner @ gelare. yucks. not filling but too sweet to carry on after eating quite abit of its waffle+ice cream+stawberry topping.
des sent mi home after that, he was quite unhappy about it as it nearly took him 2 hours to travel.

2nd day, 28th sept, wednesday, i wore an even higher heels to work, but it didnt hurt like the previous one due to whatever reasons. des came to fetch mi after work and sat down at MAc with Sheryl, his weewee-mate for awhile and...

3rd day, 29th sept, thursday which is TODAy, wore a TOTALLY FLAT slipers to work. dun care, as long i felt much more comfotable. lolx
des came to fetch mi after work, we went to starbucks and talked things out 1st b4 heading to katong and had our dinner there. des hired a cab and of coz he went home 1st and left with mi and the taxi driver. AS UsUAL, the taxi driver was SO talkative again and des was like giving mi a call every 5 mins to check where was i. GOSh. it onli cost about $15 from katong to cck, tot it would be $20++, anyway, its des' treat. :p

monday blue!!!!

monday blue!!!! woke up really early this morning and acc my mum to chinatown, afterwhich we went to bugis and had high tea in crystal jade. DEssie joined us and he was trying to bluff mi by saying that he's full, TOO BAD, i'm smartie, i could see from his eyes that he was lying! haa! OPEN EYES and TELL LIES.

after high tea, i followed dessie to east coast park to join his class bbq. DAMNIT. i was been isolated at one corner while desmond lee was happily talking to his friends throughout. i wasnt served with any food until i initiated to take. useless desmond lee. one of his friend who accidentally spilt a CUP and ice Lemon tea on my skirt and bloody dessie didnt even bother to care!! ARGH!!!!!! poor mi was been isolated at the corner. showed abit of attitude to desmond lee later until he was about to pissed off. HMMMMMMMMPf.

requested to leave at 9pm which was still early, but, I DUN CARE. i just wanted to get outta that HELL place.

went to orchard after that and wanted to catch a show, but didnt make it becox all the shows were either already started or starting super late. timing couldnt
match our ideal time as i gotta work tmr. THEN, that ass wanted to head home and my stomach was like GRUMBLING, den he pointed at one kopitiam opposite of cineleisure. come on, its TOWN. i wonder why must he go home whenever we reach town for not even 10 mins!? he wasnt like that in the past! SO, i showed attitude again! den he almost got fed up again!
we ended up having his supper and my dinner at coffee club outside of california fittness, had a chit chat session with mr desmond lee there and i just couldnt stop complaining about his bloody rude classmates.
TOT my membership card was expired but luckliy discount for coffe club is still on. HOHOHOHOHOHO
wanted to take the last bus home but dessie was walking so slow that we missed the last bus!!!!! just jk, i was walking not fast enough in fact. lolx
so took cab home and its onli $13 after 12am.not i pay anyway. lololololx

boring day again

boring day again~ have been resting at home these 2 days, woke up at 1.30pm today and played gunbound and alvin koh =.= i am so noob now!!!! even lose to normal golden axe!!! wat to do.. my rank also dropped to silver battle axe plus onli. -.-

met alvin lau, weikai,benjamin,benjaimin's gf, weijie and stanley, suppose to meet them for dinner but i was late abit, so ended up alvin, the one who have to book in earliest ate mac whild standing! -.- there were so many ar bin ge crowded around white sand as they were waiting to fall in. lolx
haha its fun seeing them from slackers to become soldiers.

afterwhich, weijie, stanley, benja's bf ( i still dunnoe her name -.-) and i went to changi village for dinner, sad to say that i didnt manage to see any ah gua as dessie called and he asked mi to visit my collegues (ah gua), not funny at all. didnt talk much becoz my throat was still veri dry and it becomes itchy whenever i speak. i hate that.

weijie went back to camp at about 10pm and saw so many commando graduates there. o.O
home sweet home~ stanley sent us back home after that and surprisingly he sent mi to the lift -.- really surprised.

rest day

woke up at 2++++pm today, so boring!!!!! i smell BUMs! lolx yeah, ate bums and had medicine.
tried playing the violin for awhile but realised tat i am lacked of practising and sounded terrible! no.. worse than terrible.

was so bored that i went to d/l the new gunbound and started playing again! wth! my rank was dropped and i am totally unfamiliar with the new gb now.

i am so bored!!!! gotta be the same tmr????? argh!! i wanna recover immediately!!!!! i wanna go out!! i dun wanna stay at home anymore!! i'm so bored! : (

yAP!

had this desire to buy accessories upon collecting my pay but luckily i didnt!! lol

beside my blue mood due to the sickness that i am having now. my mum simpliy BRIGHTENED up my day with things she bought for mi!!!

i was sleeping when she reached home and she bought my favorite 'milk Egg bum' for mi to eat!!!! hmmmm.. was too lazy to get out of my bed till she said that theres 'milk egg bums'! lolx yum yums!

other than that, she bought stuffs that surprised lots!!!!!!!
let mi share with u guys ^^


total of 6 trendy long necklaces, 3 pairs of ear rings, 3 veri normal braclets, a super styling sling bag( i like the bag most), hairclips and a retro sunglass. :)
thou the bag was suppose not for mi but for my mum herself, but i just cant resist to have it...sorry mum.



look at this bloody sick and pale face -.-
however i am still so happy that i dun have to waste my money !! hahaha

SICK!

i am so sick..sore throat again, block nose again, running nose again!!!
arGh!!!!
woke up at 11.35am today.. its a miracle that i woke up automatically at 11 plus as i tot i would i sleep till the afternoon after eating panadols.

Jimmy called and asked mi to go down to red hill for an interview for a project next week. i was damn sick and who cares wat project is there next week right, but since he sponsored cab fare, why not? lolx

upon reaching red hill, nobody was in the office and waited for awhile, jeffery came in and said ready to go, i was perplexed as i didnt know where were we suppose to go to. he drove mi to lavender and picked up another promoter, chuang yi(i hope it spells like that) from lavender mrt station, a girl named Sheryl called Jeffery on the way and got to know there's one more promoter was going to join us called Sheryl, i wonder who she looks like as Jeffery said that those been selected to be in this project must be female and must be quite good looking. =X i was curious u see.

reached the company and saw this girl who looks like desmond's super close gal friend called Sheryl, and Chuang Yi introduced by saying that she's her Sec. school friend. i was like OMG, that means Chuang Yi was from Broadrick Sec. also, OMG OMG later sheryl introduced again by saying that Chuang Yi is actually Desmond Lee's ex classmate. -.- wat a SMALL Singapore. SHOCKED. so bascially all of us know this bastard called desmond lee. omg omg why is everywhere i go i will meet broadrick ppl. -.- must be his spys.

Beside that i was freaking sick, the interview conducted by this guy named Desmond was not bad. it was a brand new product that they are going to lauch next week, and which is a PC/notebook security device. not bad, i am quite convinced by that product thou its price is quite high. furthermore, its a singapore product.. will it be the next creative ? O. btw its called easySafe, looks like a thumbdrive but there's no storage inside but it acts like a pass code to access to all the confidential documents in ur pc/notebook. its cool!

product training lasted for about 2 hours and poor alvin lau waited for mi in lavender for about 2 hours also. he was there to wait for mi and accompany mi to see doctor, ended up met him at bugis and took mrt back to clementi, the clinic was closed for dinner break! and till then then i realised actually i had not eaten anything yet!!! lolx so had my lunch cum dinner nearby. Alvin got irritated and pissed off by mi that i kept saying asking him wat to do if i am dead, i was really feel like dying !! but it was onli lasted for a while? 30 seconds? lolx
the doctor was so gentle and friendly again, but the medicines she gave mi like effectiveless, i am still feeling so sick!

alvin den sent mi back home and bought 2 bottles of 1.5 little mineral water for mi.. zz gotta stay at home and rest -.-

mama is coming back tonight, comfirmed! haa!

LAST paper

22th sept 05
SHIT LA!!!!!!! wanted to be the last one to msg kaiman for his brithday, yes and ended up being the 1st one to wish him happy belated brithday! -.-

last paper today! yeah! it was raining and thus i got to walk the longer path to reach T1A66. guess i was the last one to reach the exam room. -.- it was different this time as my class combined with different class ppl. saw unfamiliar faces but who cares.

went to town for some after exams shopping with xiaoyan, lydia, huixian and tracY. tracy left for her other friends at cine and lydia's bf joined us for 'dinner'.
next we went to shop around and poor lydia's bf, gotta follow all of us, luckily he's sociable enough and created some fun by giving comments on the things that we were looking at. too bad my bf dun wanna join us, and when my bf couldnt wait to put down the phonw when he heard the word shopping from mi.


LOOK!!! isn't it dame CUTE?? my new house key!! ^^


LOOK!!! i luv this mickey mouse watch!!!! 1st sight love!

O! blur QUEEN !!!!! now den i realised my mum is actually coming back on the 23rd not 22nd. -.-

btw hey! i ate something different today!!! long john sliver,,,,,,

i hate my bf

i hate my bf for being not caring at all.
i ate a capsule of panadol infront of him just now and he acted as if he nv see anything, instead he ordered mi to unuplug the cable back to my brother's room. hello i got headache leh!! can't u pls ask wat happened to mi.
i want to have a taste of love! argh!! i hate my bf now.

its 22th sept today, kai man's 19th brithday!
Mummy is coming back today.
Alvin is booking out today.
its my last paper today!

romance, will onli happen in my dreams. ><>

time to sleep.

nightMARE everyone. why would i wish you guys nightmare everytime is becoz its until you have a really terrible nightmare den you will start to appreciate things around you! hahahah is this reasonable? -.-

wat a day

i think i know where is T1A66 by now, its right infront of the admin office. lolx

yeaH! i ate something different for dinner today, dessie bought mi KFC! -.- studying for building science, going to topic 8, 3 more topics left!

i wanna be tutor! Help pls. the reason i think i can tutor is becoz i am patient and i am cute. WAHAHAHAHAHAHA

its kaiman's birthday tmr.

boring, gotta study for BSC

boring, i have nothing to eat at home!..
went to NtuC just now and ended up buying tidbits and 1.5L mineral water. hAA! mummy is coming back tmr night. ^^
have been eating UNHEALTHY food these 10 days with my brother huh. ordered delivery Macdonald and instant nooddles, tidbits and mooncakes. ARGH craps.
my house is in a MESS now. its so dirty! not my fault, its chris and his bloody friend, why must i wash clothes for him also!?! you dont pay mi ok. and i know dessie will help mi sweep and mob the floor if he loves mi, right!?

gotta study for building science for tmr, that one and onli exam paper for mi in this semester. hmmmm 12 topics! WOW. one and onli module, nvm.
btw where the HEll is T1A66?? my exam venue!!!!!!!

IDEA presentation

ARrRggGh. whatever happened, my previous entry is gone.

yesterday was idea presentation, we were the fisrt group to present and its always a little bit more nervous for the 1st group alright. to our disadvantage. the judges pointed out some bad points that to other groups' advantage, they added in what is required in the presentation last min. hmpf!

afterwhich, i went to katong and meet dessie and have lunch there with his friends, sam, kevin and narita. ate katong LAksA! yummyx!
all of us went to plaza singapura and calvin joined us later, watched The Cave!! SO COINCIDENTALLY met XiangYing and Si Cheng before entering the cinema. and they were watching the same show at the same time with us! hahahaha its was they ONE year anniversary! time flies. haha still can remember xy telling mi sc is not bad and she wanna get him in sec1 ! hahahahahaha =X
they were sitting behind initially but later i CHEATED them down to sit beside mi. lols

hmmm went to parkway parade to have our dinner at crystal jade. hmmm kevin's treat for my birthday. ^^
next we went to classic pool and i got thrashed by narita!! stupid dessie forced mi to play and made mi embarrassed. hmpf.
it was boring becoz i have no much interest in playing pool la. play the flute lah, play the violin laaa..
haha watched dessie and his friends to play.. he was so SUCKY! jk. lol.
he showed mi an erotic video which was about Liu Jia Ling, Tony Leong's gf was kidnapped and got raped by a few guys, pitiful.

okok, afterwhich was about 10.45pm and dessie sent mi back home to cck and he said he's veri CARING. pui

today, 20th sept. its ZEBRA, pan yuan's birthday.
woke up at 1.35pm -.- and received a sms from manager and he asked mi to called the office if i am free so i called and he asked mi why was my sales so bad. hey come on, it's bugis not orchard. ppl go bugis shopping and shop about youngster clothes and bags and accessories and so on but not handphone can. and its really a dead city, wat can i do about my sales. so went down to company straightaway, returned all the phones and took my pay. talk to jimmy for awhile and for next week, no deployment for mobile but going to samsung IT at Funan. whatever.
went to Funan with dessie and have 'lunch' there, stupid spoile�d child desmond lee ordered chicken rice and onli ate the chicken, the rice were left untouched, according to him, it was becox the rice were too big. KNS spoiled child. waste money.
took shuttle bus to marina square and used the toilet there! =.= and waited for dessie's friend, leonard to knock off from work. *.*
took cab home from suntec and the taxi uncle was so talkative again becoz he scared that he would fall asleep. haa! yeah of coz i would have to entertain him by talking also if not my life would be at risk if he's falling asleep then.

lanten festival

RESTLESS.
ARGH!!!!!!! so pain! my legs are so pain, my feets are to pain, my backbone is so pain! i am so TIRED! i am EXHUASTED! ARgh!
have been standing for almost 12 hours over the weekend. worse thing is got complained that i was talking to other mobile's promoters when customers wanted to approach mi. hmmpf, dun have a damn.
got to know new friends over the 2 weekends $like reener, panasonic's promoter and amanda, motorola's promoter.
reener and i.
its been fun talking to them about bfs and doing stupid things, erhmm of coz the stupid things that i am referring to are done by mi. like eating kept forcing myself to eat papaya and drank papaya milkshake just to try shitting on that day; taking K75oi to take pic of amanda's mini skirt from the bottom while she was teaching a small boy boy how to use the DJmoto. hmmmm

the naughty pic i had taken was deleted infront of her. TOO BAD.

LOOK! they are so cute!!! they are having illegal eating session-.-
and u can differenciate the sizes of them, the one at the middle has the smallest size and she's cutest there can

quickly switched on the come and do my preparation of the presentation later, yes and i dun think i am prepared by now eventhough everything is ready now.

hungry.
Ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo mid authum festival....was eating moncake alone at home. I saw the full moon while i was walking home just now, it was so BRIGHT and pieces of childhood memories were brought back. =X

alvin lau called mi when i was on my way home. reception was so SUCKy that i could hear him clearly at all and worse still, his phone card ran out of money halfway while we were talking. so from wat he said, he ran up to doom and took another phone card to call again, and by then i was already reached homEe. ^^ O he's gonna book out on thursday!

was watching TFKC~the repeat one at 1plus am until 2.30am. its quite nice, becoz the guy who look like qiqi is inside, the shortest guy in 5566. lolx

16th sept. i was so pissed off with adeline leong on that day, HOWEVER i didnt scold her becoz i've went my anger on two persons b4 she actually appeared infront of mi. the the victims are des aka qiqi and lynn choo. i shouted to them over the phone and lucky adeline leong. i shall not blog about wat happened becoz i must learn to be FORGIVE and FORGET, i've forgave her and thus i gotta FORGET it. so FORGET IT. ok, the two victims? bleahx.

17th sept, qiqi ake dessie came to fetch mi after work, we went to eat opposite of bugis parcco and after which, we went to pool junction to they his friend's friend. wat a disappointment, it doesnt matter to mi at all anyway. hee

SWEET 19th BURrrrrrrrFday

yeah i am one year older again! 19th!!!! hitting 20 soon.
well there's a veri memorable burfday for mi this year as i actually had celebrated 5 times;
1. with my classmates . sp-DPFM/FT/1B/21
2. with the elderlis
3. with adeline
4.with messie dessie lousie
5. with mama

thanks for all the gifts people;
the meaningful mini torchlight from alvin lau
the bangawa solo cake from the elerlis
the mini ipod and the lovely famous amos cookie cake from dessie
the necklace from adeline LOLX
the cake of adeline and mi also. hahaha
the $50 adidas vouchers from the 10 flautists (tanny, xue chun, siewb, peirong, bernard, matthew, liting, kmiang, 5D and linyun) LUv ur guys! :)
the set of the retro greenie ear rings and neclace from xiaoyan, Lydia, Tracy and huixian.
the hongbao from mama

YES, ppl who i didnt expect them to remember my burrrfday had actually sent their regards to miii too. *.* kinda surprised upon receiving msgs from you guys!

AND ppl who i expect HER to send mi her regards PUROSELY dun wanna send, u know who you are. bad bad bad bad SISITER. this doesnt make u any special ok. bleahxxxxxx

bilibombangpangpongBANGBANG.

next blog entry preview: my exam, life without alvin lau so far and life with dessie recently.

have to update

Hey guys! i will update sooner or later when i am free or bored. lolx especially desmond lee, who requested mi not to blog about him. u wait ok. wait long long.

i will blog about my birthday also. its so memorable that i studied LAW throughout the whole long night. hmmmm yupz
shall blog about if i am going to continue my cca in sp too. coming soon...

brithday celebration with ADe!

brithday ceLEbRAtion with Adeline!
she's 17 and i am 19!





our cake and presents! lolx

sob sobx melissa yeo yao yao has been transdormed into another person whom we dislike! hmmpf!

time to be independent

hmmmm things are going to change from this moment onwards. alvin just went in to ns and mummy is going back to hk soon. its time to be independent again. yesterday was also my 6th month with des.
finally handed in rwp report and finished doing CADD. pheeeeeeew. i know its time to study as my 1st paper is coming right on next monday, 12th sept! yes and it seems like i dont have the desire and this urgency to touch on any of the modules, worse thing is that i know nuts about all the modules. basically, it makes no difference when i was able to reached school on time for lectures and when i was absent from lectures because when i was on time for lectures, i slept in class due to lack of sleep and i was absent, i wasnt in class! -.- for afternoon lectures like ECT, i would wanna pay attention and make a productive lesson out of it, yes and i couldnt concentrate due to the distractions from my classmates and buddy classmates. sometimes i wonder how did they do their o levels with this kind of attitude towards teacher and during lesson. they can should from right infront to right at the back like no one else is beside them. they can leave the lesson halfway in front of the teacher. i admit that i do disrepectful some lecturers or rather..all the lecturers, that i couldnt help to be late everyday, walked out of the class during lesson time for breakfast or tea break, but at least i do attend lectures no matter how i late i was and i came back after breakfast and tea break.
gonna work at the hello singtel @ bugis tmr. why am i always stuck in bugis? -.- there's one hello singtel in bukit butok also!!
i wonder when will i have the mood and time to study for the coming exams...
gonna meet adeline later and going to red hill to collect the handphones and going out for a dinner. or i shall say that we are going to celebrate our birthdays together.
LYNN:
its not true that guys can hold back their anger and handle their temper better than girls, becoz i am one example that much more patient than any other guys and i hardly get angry!! lol except for my bf la. different story, lolx
its not that guys can handle their temper better than guys, its just that they have to give in to girls thats why they cant u possibly show their anger at you, and they guys get angry, they will not show on the surface and tell everyone like girls do! they are from mars, and we are from venus, u wont know wat's in their mind. LOLx

earli celebration of 19th burfday with elderlis

6th sept. it was suppose to be my so called burfday. went back home after eCt and started doing my report stragihtaway, its bickering and i have no much time left to do it. fatiguing day.
alvin called mi at 8+pm and asked mi to go downstairs, i was saying i need to do my report, maybe u have to wait. and later he msg mi said that the security guard kept looking at him and asked mi to go down fast.
wei kai and benny were sitting at the bench and i knew there shouldnt be just the two of them. but talked cock abit and saw uncle mason was walking out slowly with a cake on his hands. the scrumptious cake from bengawa solo was so damn cute, especially the chocolate slice at the side! i luv it! was touched but nv cry. lolx after which, they brought mi to eat dim sum``surprised to know that they actually remembered i wanted to eat dim sum and i onli mentioned once infront of them.

thank you.


torchlight from alvin.
why torchlight?..its because i am scare of the dark and he knows that he wont be there for mi anymore as he's going to ns from tmr onwards! 8th sept. he wants mi to feel as
calm as when he's there while i'm holding this powerful mini torchlight from him. touched once again and i felt like crying, whatever happens, but i didnt. basically he doesnt wanna soo mi cry and he was talking so much cock that stopped mi from crying. i asked him, if given a chance, would u want to see mi cry over the webcam or in real person. he said none, dun wanna see mi cry at all. ok..
talked about personal stuffs and about my time management, band and more..

alvin and i, thank you for everything..

conversation with him was interrupted when des called mi and told mi about a sms that i didnt recieved then. i cant stand the rudeness he shown mi recently. but i've been keeping quiet.
to mi, i still think that wat was i doing outside is way more important than wat time i actually reached home. and he insists to think that it will be fine as long as i reach home early and he cant be bothered wat did i do outside. wth. the msg he sent mi but i didnt receieve then was to break up with mi if i didnt call him with my housephone by 3am. totally lost when he said that over the phone and so, ended the conversation with alvin immediately. moodless to continue probably.

IBM is over

sOrry for about not blogging people, its becox i am really really too lazy. lolx
IBM is over. YEaH. it was my 1st concert in sp band. 1st time performing in such a HUGE band, and maybe becoz of that, i felt more secured and more steady. heehee
i told 5d that i was getting nervous when the audience were walking in one by one and LUCkili i got it overcame as soon as the concert started. was busy looking out for my friends too. lolx
thanks those who attended and supported mi! and the LilIes from alvin lau..
thank you flute section for being the most hardworking and most slacking section i have ever met.

took 2 days to rest and lots of works are waiting for mi to complete ahead.
tests and exam is coming too!!!! damnit, gotta study right from the start on my own as i didnt really catch anything from the lecturers in classes. hopefully i can catch up the rest b4 my tests and exam.