LASt time of my LOng HoLIdaY..

let mi flash back on the memories of my this super long holiday..
After O's :
-> started learning violin
-> work in Asthra mag. mlm with lynn, made lots of new friends there, still in contact with nAe nAe
-> work in teck waye with the name GINA, cuyan was working under the same company also, ppl there really believed that i was 16 years old. lolx
-> work in hilo expreSs, met new friends like Karen and other NiCe ppl from the pasta, fish&chipz, ROmanKan and the swiss bakery stalls there~ the yAndao,Roy, who i managed to make friends with him later. ^^v . went back home from the longest way after work with friends from pasta stalls, i dodnt mind i was the last one to reach home as i had their company on my way home ^^
->joined california fittness
->met desmond lee
-> met Alvin Lau
-> CNY, confessed to kaiman but got rejected, met my relatives after about 4 years since the last time i met them, met my nephew who is actually older than mi by one month, 1st time went shopping with him and my cousin, after which, my brother came to fetch us and drove one of his gf home. -.- met my childhood buddies, went drinking and ktv with them which we couldnt do that when we were young`~ they didnt make mi feel left out at all after sOOOOOo long since the last gathering and they are preparing to go uni now.
-> back to SG, went out with Kaiman.. :D
-> back to work in hilo express, xY joined in later~
-> rejected Alvin Lau :<
-> collection of O's result
-> kaiman confessed to mi! went stead with him, but it ended as soon as it came. ...hai
-> grandpa passed away
-> stead with desmond lee
-> Lynn joined mi in cali`~
-> Alvin Koh's scary actions =.=
-> quit Hilo Express
-> went back to tss and visited tsMb
-> SYF for TsmB, awarded silvEr~
->sTArted to slack around and rot at home
->went sentosa with cHeryl, sHuejUn, Maveric, jInhAn, cOsTa, peifen, HowaI
->started going out with weijie, mason, alvin lau and weikai~ ^^
-> end of my long holiday! <-
however, friendships will nv end, especially those who where there for mi when i needed them. i will always treasure for wat i am having now`and wat i have got from ur. heez
also, i AM herE TO WELcome those ppl who wanna thank mi for i was there for u All tOo. WAHhahahaha =X

today is my LASt day of the LONg LONg holiday~ hmmmm feel abit SIAN when come to think that my holiday is going to end when i just started enjoying my holidayx, when i just started to understand wat is being fun with friends around, when i just started to know how is it feel like when i am being pampered and dote by ppl, when i just started to know that there are ppl in this universe really care for mi, sacrifice their resting time to accompany mi, made efforts to make mi feel protected and happy, gave mi advices and taught mi self respect. i am really glad to have friends like them, especially when i was so damn bored during my holidayz.
however, happy moments will nv last. becoz my school is starting tmr!!!
we promised each other that we'll keep in touch no matter wat, i'll be the god mother of weijie's child in the future. haha

next chapter of my life is beginning tmr`~ yUPz the 1st thing i should do now is to gain back the trust from my form teacher and rebuild my reputation -.- actually... i am a GOOD student..just..that i always wake up lATe.. -.-

something meaningful to mi right now.

Never Say I Love You if U don't care.
Never Talk about feelings if they aren't really there.
Never Touch A Life if you mean to break a Heart.
Never say U Will, if U don't plan to start.
Never look in the eye when all U do is lie.
The Cruellest thing a Guy can Do to a girl, is to Let Her Fall In Love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall.

got this from pat's blog and she got it from someone's friendster page. Lolx
yupz~its veri meaningful and i think its really true. glad that i have been awaken by friends around mi b4 the next chapter of my life beginz tmr~ ^^

games day

WOw. woke up at 5++am today!!!! was so excited about the games day that i couldnt sleep anymore. reached school super EARly. Called Lilian and waited for the rest together. Lilian was veri friendly and enthu~ sAw my form teacher and she claimed that i comfirm not from her class coz there nobody's surname called 'LIU" in her class..cox weijie's surname is Liu and i am suppose to be his sister. hahaha O den i said i am 'GUAN' la.. right on the top of the class list. lolx the onli person who nv attend anything day of the freshmen orientation until the last day which was today -.- didnt know that all my classmates have already know mi by my name for missing in the previous the events. GOssh, they are so QUIET -.-

with nicely divided teams~ we played this stupid game in orchard. ..-.- firST time running around orchard from heeren to centre point to lucky plaza to paragon, ran around inside each shopping mall. diAOx it was like so sUPER tiRING especially when i didnt have enough sleep and its been so LONG since the last time i do exercise. at 1st i felt so sleepy and den felt so tired and den felt like fainting.

-.- but ~! but~! my team achieved the 1st position afterall. lolx.
went to the MAc at weST cOAst park`. viewed the video which was about the game @ orchard b4 that and hAD our lunch finally =.= my form teacher still dun believe i am weijie's younger sister.. she called one of weijie's ex classmate and asked him if weijie got sis. -.-

well~ MOst of my classmaTEs are kinda bORed and qUIEt, it seems like i was the onli one who was still as talkative and energetic after a such TIRing day. yeah, today was my 1st time meeting new friends..but doesnt mean i'll be shy or what~
LUCKILY, there were some jokers entertained mi. wahahahha

so tired so tired so tired!!!

=.=

=.= good and valuable experience i had on 24th may 2004. helps and advices are gREAtly appreciated. really, thanks so much. thanks for the accompany throughout the night too.

i dunnoe wat am i doing now, but i will make sure that i wont leave any regrets in the future.

ppl, pray for miii!

TAn Eng hWee's wedding

met des at 8pm. had dinner @ nydc and left town and met li yong. went to meet mason, weijie, stanley, weikai, serene and benny @.. dunnoe where and acc them to have their dinner. went to marina south where its opposite of the whole raffles place. i promise i will nv have the opportunity to be there on my own`~ stanley's car got sTUCked in the hole when he was trying to do something stupid on the empty field. haha made ppl push push the car for him`. went home and ..

diu..slept for less than3 hours and got morning call from li yong at10am. weijie called at 10.30am and told mi that stanley wont be fetching him. wahahaha
met 4e2'04 at bb mrt station and went to St.mAry catholic church for mR. tan eng hwee's wedding.
the afternoon class gathering was cancelled. so followed stanley and weijie to fectch mason and adeline after the wedding.
they didnt know where to eat after thinking for about 10 mins? i was starving! -.- so we went to lao ba sai.
li yong and weikai joined us later, man. li yong's face was so pale becoz he didnt sleep at all yeserday night and he could still drove and made that stunning illegal U turn -.-
sent adeline to yishun, her friend's house for project. went to eat @ amk, i didnt eat =D
wanted to wait for adeline but they sugguested playing mj in weijie's house and my eyes were like closing at anytime, so weije suggested that i might as well sleep @ his house while they're playing mj. who knows i fell asleep in li yong's car and found myself was already downstairs of my house when i open my eyes. haha thanks.

reached home happily`~tot everything was fine and ok.. . i can say that des and i are on the verge of breaking up due to lots of problems that we found out between us recently.have 2 days to consider if we should carry on. i wanna think carefuly and i dun wanna make a rash decision like wat i did. yeah, love is still exsisting, but if breaking up and letting go will give us a happier life, why not? its better than holding each other back and make our life carry on to suffer due to all these stupid problems.
however, letting go is not as easy as saying it. especially when u are like so fucking in love with him.

had long talk with alvin lau

lets see where did i go yesterday. woke up at 1++++pm, went to cut hair AGAIN.. hmmmmmm i am sure u can tell the difference of the length this time! lolx its damn short le.
met adeline after cutting my hair~went to town AS USUAL. damn sick of town, but wat to do. walked around, dinner, talk.........get to know more about her. duh -.-
went for steam bath at about 10++pm and she was suppose to pay for lynn's bill for gym onli but ended up used her membership card as well. lolx was so happy to see that there were so little ppl in the changing room! lolx went to the steam bath room after changing and saw throught the glass door that the steam bath room was FULL of ppl!! hahaha no wonder there so so little ppl outside! =.= we waited awhile in the changing room and gOSh.. elson kept calling her and sending her msg ..haiz! she was kinda irrirated then and i replied 2 msgs on behalf of her.. one was 'i am with helen now, wat for u worried so much' den he replied something DAMN irritating and sickening which i cannot tahan also. becoz he just kept calling NON STOP while adeline and i were like chatting?! if he wanna talk to her den might as well he come and meet ade LA! so i simple replied 'SHUT UP'.. lolx this made him HOT! and he called called called called, finally ade bth and picked up the call, guess what? 1st elson scolded adeline 1st den later he wanna talked to mi. as in he wanna scold mi also becoz of the 2 msgs i replied. kaoz i could hear him even i am not the one who was holding the phone la. kns. shout at girls. after bathing was around 12++am? gosh...haiz.. li yong wanted to send her home 1st and she took so damn long to get the permission from elson? wth, if he's worry den might as well let my friend send her home 1st instead of taking cab alone -.- i am sure that elson is pissed off with mi la lolx but he's really too prossessive. saw elson was waiting for ade around her house downstairs. haiz. think they probably had a fight again. and i BET ade still dun wanna let go. anyway`~ as li yong said, she gotta make a final decision herself no matter wat and choose the kind of life she wants without being influenced by anyone's words.
yeah come this this guy's house in west coast named Melvin.. hmmm they said he's from tanglin but i nv see him b4. -.- oo met benny's gf, sherlyn, quite pretty and well.. doesnt LOOk like a girl who take guys for granted to mi, maybe i'll know when i get to know her better in the future if theres any chance, they were in benny's car listening to musics and chatting when we walked passed. had a long long talk with li yong yesterday, hmmm told him every single things that happened from the 1st time he met mi until now in details. told him even things like i stead with kaiman for one day? and told him why would i choose a bf who is younger than mi in the end. i told him that i was pressurized to be the 1st girl he likes as he's such a gentlemen and nice to mi, but i'm gotta leave him that scar in his heart forever. by right he should be the one who is depressed, but ended up he's the one who was telling mi things that i should not feel that way and he cheer mi up again. we didnt finish talking as his sis called him after her clubbingz with her bf and another girl, so he sent mi to where weijie and mason were 1st and went to fetch his sis home`. i didnt manage to go to the mAin point of the conversation yet ><
benny sent sherlyn home 1st and i watched the 3 guys playing the game called STAR WAR. -.-
waited for li yong to come back and went to eat. i DIDNT eat becoz it was lATE. hee
dessie is coming back from thailand today! yuppie` he miss mi =p

truth and daRe

yesterday night., weijie, li yong, mason and weikai came to my house downstairs and asked mi to borrow them a lighter -.- smokers no lighter leh!!!! LOlx weikai ate at the kopitiam below and we chatted awhile and they were still hungry!! -.- so we went to telok blangah and ate. i didnt eat!!!!!! lolx becox it was quite late already so li yong bought mi an ICe mountain -.- well chatted abit. it's veri interesting listening to their stories in tanglin sec. after eating, we chilled out at east coast park, at 1st we were still talking about the stories in tss. weijie's inchy hand spoiled my bro's ligther which i brought for them!! hahaha but they went to borrow lighter and even took the candle light from a restraunt -.- someone sugguested to play 7-up and forfeit was to play tRuth and DAre. wasnt really exciting becox i was the onli girl there -.- got to know something veri surprising huh. Ooooooo i made weijie to took off his pant when he left with a DAre. hahahahaha i DIDNT LOOk !!! i onli peeped and saw the pic taken by mason. lolx o yEAH i also
made li yong took off his shirt and walked to a stranger and said heLLo. lolx i am damn bad coz they onli forfeited mi to do the ..1,2,5,7,10 and i even bargained to do 1,2,5 onli. lolx onli felt embarrassed and awkward when mason asked mi who is the most handsome guy amount the 4 of them and choose one to be my bf if the world has left with the 4 of them. obviously the ans is ... i will just KILL mySELF. hmmm..one more of my DAre was......
left east coast park at about 6am and went to the 7-11 @ ginza to have their breakfast, again, i didnt eat becoz it was too early. lolx their faces were like -.-! when i gave such lame excuses.
i waited in the car and my contact lenses was like so supEr dRY then. ><>took a cOld bath and felt so refreshed~! fell asleep when my mum woke up at 9 plus?
hmmm just woke up.. going to meet mummy for dinner laTer~ ^^
but i might be the one who is paying.. -.-
decided not to for the camp tmr coz its at 8.30am!! gotta kill mi to wake up so early while i onli sleep around that time~!

des pangseh mi today

woke up at..hmmm was suppose to meet desmond at 1pm plus at eunos but he wanted to played pool with his friends so i went to eunos alone and wOw. second time being there and hmmm managed to find my way. Lucky~! eunos is not a nice place hmmmm too many 'ah gua' and indians and malays there, i mean too MANY. and there are too little shelter which means its sUPER hot there!! yeah dun really like -.-
took trained home and saw a MAN in the trained sitting opposite of mi. @.@
Oooooooooo was suppose to eat SUshi today as well!! but.....its been long since the last time i eat sushi. wtf. all my fav food has become the last in my list nowadays. have been eating pasta and raimen most of the time ever since i am attached. diu ><>
hEY pplz i am moving house soon`~ wanna knoe where's my next destination? -.-
o yEah, learnt how to de-clutter my tons of stuffs at home, ppl hoard letters and souvenirs from their primary and secondary school days, lots of ppl keep things 'just in case', but they often end up with boxes of unnecessary clutter. i am one of them! i dun really like to receive un-productive presents like those just for displaying, i would rather buy stuffs and beautify my corner in my own style. but its RUDE to reject present, it is also disrespectful to throw them away. here are some ways to help ppl like me!
practise prevention : thrown out unwanted mail and papers the dat u receive them. Always discard one old item for every mew acquistion.
schedule regular de-cluttering sessions : spend 5 to 15 mins a day on one area, like ur closet, keep working on it over several days until the job is done.
Box it up : label one box "put somewhere else", another "give away"/"sell". a third " keep" and a forth "garbage". This will help u make immediate decisions about wat to do wit items u're sorting through.
Learn to let go : keep onli select items that have happy memories attached. Discard or donate things u haven used in a year.
avoid impulse buys : wait a week before buying anything. this prevents you from buying something on impulse and helps u save money too.
yup~i think i will need boXes and classify all my stuffs```~ anyone wanna go iKEa b4 school start?~feel free to call mi~ 24 7 service. XLOlx

haaaaa weijie's pissed with mi today

woke up at...DAMn early also hmmm 1.30pm when dessy called. suppose to meet him at 2pm @ cityHall. hELl~~ DASssshed out with an empty stomach and this stupid guy did something stupid due to his bad temperz and impatience. FOOK HIM. was really pissed off by him. went back home to take my violin and headed to yamaha @ plaza singapura, my anger let-off abit as i was looking at the the instruments and books in yamaha while waiting for my violin`~ des came to ps and looked for mi den, was still quite angry so i kept quiet and so ooon.
headed to eunos after that and TOO bad! dun wanna say. ><
took train all the way from eunos to jp. have my breakfast + lunch + dinner at Billy BOmber. KAOz. freaking ex. dun ever eat there!! wanted to eat sushi but i forgot its at the basemen!!!!
headed to town from BoonLAy and watched starWArs eps lll @ cineleisure. YWAnx.
weijie is pissed by mi now becoz i forgot to replied him and made him waited -.-
took cab home and right after i reached home den recieved a msg from alvin lau. -.- o.O wrong timing~!!!! hahaha
yEAhh!!!! my time table is out finally~!!!
Monday : 9am to 4pm
Tuesday : 8am to 5pm
Wednesday : 9am to 12pm
Thursday : 10am to 4pm
Friday : 12pm to 4pm
Saturday : NO SCHOOL!!!!! ^^
my time table good sia!!! 1 hour is the longest break. hahaha no sUPER early class. WOooooooO~

raining day

HAIZ!!!!! broke the D string of my violin when i was trying to tune it yesterday. DIU. its been sO damn fooking long since i last touched it.
well, went to bed at 3ams+ yesterday but onli slept at 5am+ -.- weijie called and talked for awhile,den both of us also cannot sleep!! so we sms each other for awhile until 5am+ until i felt sleepy~ woke up at 9am today!! went to sp for the camp briefing`it was not really a camp briefing.. it was more like a game day -.- it was fun although it rains heavily halfway hmmmm rotting at home now.. o YEAH!!! i bought a pai gu rice for 2 buCKs!!! and guess wat!!! there were onli 2 pieces of pai gu with plain rice!!! KAOz!!! i dont pack food home usually and got cheated just now!!! hMPF!!!!

15th may`~ had dinner at west coast with the same ppl, saw weijie's dad and he asked us to play mj at their house, so went to play mj at weijie's house. O!! lose 8 bucks. lucky i am not the one who's paying. lolx. kaoz mason won 80 bucks la. kns! li yong sent us home one by one again and i was the last time to be sent this time. hahahha no diff! just that we talked abit more and for the 1st time he sent mi back to my doorstep yesterady night. saw something online and went offlinr immedaitely. weijie called so talked to him for about 2 to 3 hours -.- slept at 5am plus again. haiz

about yesterday`~

woke up by the call from dental -.- was suppose to reach the dental at 10.30am, HELL obviously that i totally forgot about it already. so dun intend to go back anymore!
hmmm went to california fitness yesterday and met li yong, weijie, mason and wei kai after that~ WEeeeeeee they brought mi to dunnoe where and eat CHICKEN PORRiDge~!!!!!its was yUMMiee~ but weijie and mason made mi lost my apetite when they started using my phone to msg cherly Loon -.-
went to mount faber after eating, we came to this place and when we were about to sit down, we saw there was this pair of couple sitting on the grass nearby! manz, sorry to turn them off. lOlx
but we didnt leave, hahahahah they shown mi lots of tricks using the lighters, cigarette and the cigarette box, i was like--WAO!!! WOW!!! WAH!!! mason and li yong showed mi the wat the suck fire!! i video taped down li yong's sucking fire. wanna seE????
O.O the most interesting one would be weijie's 'magic' la! i realli gOt stUNNED but that thou. lolx den mason was saying if there's a poker card set den he can show mi more magicz` so we intended to buy and go to west coast park` when we were on our way down, we saw the security gaurd was waving at us and we tot how come the security was so friendly sia, but who knows he was telling us that weijie's bike was being knocked down by a cAr which was already fleed with half the car plate left on the floor. POor weijie's Aprilia bike~ side mirror broke, side stand broke, gear was lossen, front light was spoiled, there were leakage of 'fuel' also~ poor weijie was so hot then and he was like super sad and dl at the same time. wei kai called the police immediately and the rest were trying to make the bike stand properly with a little plastic chair found by the security. i was hmmmm.. i was doing nothing except watching. =X
hahahaha nO cHoice, gotta leave the bike the there and we boarded onto li yong's cAr with the evidence and witness's information and went to Bukit Merah East N. Police Centre to make a police report. it was my 1st time being to a police centre -.- loLx security was high, needa go through body screening and exchange ic with a purpose card. -.- well the polices were friendly and patience`weijie was suppose to be super sad but he was still telling jokes and laughing. lolx can say that he felt the PINCh ! hahah because his eyes were wet initially` ..
went to GinZa plaza afTER the police report and mason went down the car to buy pokercArdz, weijie was telling li yong to park the car behind the 7-11 to trick mason. naughty huh. den we came to west coast part, it was already 2.33am den` -.- mason starting showing mi his 'BLack magic' with the pokercardz and i was once again 'O.O WAH!!! WOW!!!!!' manage to break one magic from mason and one from weikai. haha afTEr which was alreadt 4am!! so li yong drove us home one by one`~and as usual he sent mi to my house downstairs` funny thing is that he always send mi a msg and ask if i am safely home when he almost sent mi to my house doorstep. -.-
so~ reached home at 4 plus and watched tv until 5 plus~ dessie soi zai called and was saying he's still sick` NOT pity him at all becoz he nv take good care of himself~! always dun watch wat he eatz!
weijie is now at mount faber towing away his bike` hahaha pity him` didnt sleep for the whole day and was waiting for the police call~ o yEAh the car number for which fleed was 2173 and weijie's car number was 9909~ 4D 4D`~!!

yesterday was tuesday

something happened yesterday!!!! all started off by mi, i sent dessie a 14 pages sms which was about my feelings and thoughts at that time. i felt suffocated and even suggested breaking up with him. guess wat, i dreamt of the same thing and someone told mi that i will regret breaking up with him now in my dream, that someone asked mi to wake up and sms dessie 0.O yup, i woke up from my dream and grabbed my phone, no missed calls,no msg. so.. i msg-ed dessie and asked if he had receieved my msg and he replied 'ya i did.' thats all -.- well i was freezed up by this replied and quickly i asked 'so u accept?' horrified that he'd accept the breaking up request. HOWEVER, inextricably and AMAzingly, he receieved the whole msg except the last part which was about the breaking up part! -.- cant deny anymore, its fated. he called mi and asked mi if i really wanna break, heLL no! i dun want to end so FAST, but i didnt say this to him over the phone, it was him the one who said these to mi thou and i was like 'pHew~can continue sleeping now'~lolx
met him after his work at cityHall, he was like so quiet la, manz kinda scary!! i tried bringing up the topic but his answers were either shaked head or one word answer, FACE was sO DaMn imexpressive and lusterless. had our dinner at Thai express, well his face was still the same and still that quiet. the food i ordered was so damn hot and spicy but didnt dare to complained as the atmosphere was ..yeah.. DEAD. after which, we took bus and he finally open his mouth and asked mi this question, "are u mentally prepared?" ! this gave mi a shiver. who knows this was just a trick! -.- den he bursted all the things out eventually. conclusively i told him that i dont wanna break. he said that i mentioned about he didnt care about my feeling and he asked mi if i got care about his feeling by saying this breaking up with him so easily, without thinking very carefully. manz! i was stunned becox i didnt know how to ans him. i should not say the word break so easily like in the passed, i guess thats why the relationship alvin and i had ended up like that. hmmm must learn to treasure a relationship yeah.

met weijie, alvin lau and mason after a movie with dessie. and this time round they brought another 2 friends, kai and benny. had our supper in geylang and went to kallang, yeah~ play car again. got to drive auto car this time, hahaha good for learning how to control a car with auto car like wat alvin said. i couldnt stop laughing when i was with them, bunch of lamers. lolx it was really nice to be with them, as they helped mi put my problems behind at least can forget about my worries momentarily. yup`~ they sent mi home after that and wooo, i fell asleep in the car -.- well, thanks again for everything, although i always refuse to go out whenever ur ask mi to, but didnt regret going out with ur afterall la~ instead, i am glad that i have this opportunity having fun with ur all. wahahahahaz groooooose? right -.-

hmmmmmm...

well met up with mason,weijie and alvin lau yesterday night after watching the movie 'are we there yet' with dessie. its been long since the last time i went out with them. and lau is driving already. we went to this car park outside of SIS and took turn to play lau's car. it was my 1st time driving a manual car, damn its so troublesome la~!!! after the hand clutch still need depress the foot clutch all the way 1st den can turn the gear and den release the clutch and go to the brake. alvin was playing his life by sitting next to mi when i was driving la lolx anyway it was fun. i guess i need more lessons from him`

right, as usual slept at 7am and woke up at 3pm today. it seems like its kinda impossible for mi to reset my clock at this moment yet, MANzzzZzzZZzz

yeEAH! i am being caught in such situation that there's something i wanna do but i dunnoe wat. theres something i wanna say but just dun feel like saying or rather, dunnoe how should i start, theres something i wanna, theres something i wanna write dowm but i dont even know where to should i write. i am not myself now, i am doing things that i dont give a hell damn in the passed. DAmnit

today is sat.

lynn called in the super early morning which was about 9am! she was telling mi to go to the gym later in the morning and i told her that i am not fRee. but i am free now! FREE for the whole day! bastard, i take it as u pangseh mi. damnit, i was so desperate to ask my mum to teach mi how to make pasta source, reminded her to wake mi up in the morning too. stupid idiotic sickening moron, ass! u blockhead! .. forget it
went to cali today and as i was waiting for adeline's reply and she didnt pick up my calls, i tot she wont be meeting mi, so i told alvin that i can meet him for dinner, who knows i got 28 missed calls from adeline after bathing -.- she was watching coach carter with her jc mates and she told mi to meet outside of cali, so i msg alvin and ask where was he immediately, he was already on his way to town! -.- man! he sugguested the 3 of us go walk around and have dinner together. but! NO WAY. i will never wanna go back to the passed again, and i bet ade also wont wanna that way. its so sick! so i met ade and she was talking on the phone when i came out of cali. hmmm something is bothering her, hmmm somehow i understand how she feels as i've experience the same ting b4, exactly the same! or..or even worse one. however, i guess this wont be a problem to mi anymore if this happens to mi again in the future. well Well WElL..
sunshine after the rains~ hope she will really spend time to think about it and come out with an
impeccable decision, den focus on studies!! unlike mi, too much time to waste nowadays.

HEy everyone, Mr tan Eng hwEe is getting maRRied! yeah i know that we all knew it long ago. lolx just an opening sentence for the webbie below. hahaha
http://www.heymunhin.com/matthewpamela/final.html

i am dying at home

i am dying at home! someone pls help mi !!! tell mi how to fall asleep?! i've been lying on the bed for hours since 2am last night, i tried listening to mp3z, watch tv, cook...until now.. 10.13am!!!!!!!! -.- dunnoe wat's wrong with mi, just cant fall asleep!! its too monotonous staying at home for mi nowadays, especially when my com is spoiled. life has been become colorless, eh.. lifeless.
where are my friends? sisters? in JCs, friends? either working or being grounded at home. bf? super busy with his works. its too tedious to go out alone all the time, especially shopping alone. i miss those days when shopping with ur girls!!!!! sickening, why all go JCs? o xy is going to poly, but!! she's sicheng everywhere huh. they can never get bored seeing each other everyday. once again, i feel the icky loneiness.
ArGh!!!!!!! i am not gonna let my life in the next month carry on like this! NO WAY! ..yup! i've decided to leave singapore before my poly life starts.