i am dying at home

i am dying at home! someone pls help mi !!! tell mi how to fall asleep?! i've been lying on the bed for hours since 2am last night, i tried listening to mp3z, watch tv, cook...until now.. 10.13am!!!!!!!! -.- dunnoe wat's wrong with mi, just cant fall asleep!! its too monotonous staying at home for mi nowadays, especially when my com is spoiled. life has been become colorless, eh.. lifeless.
where are my friends? sisters? in JCs, friends? either working or being grounded at home. bf? super busy with his works. its too tedious to go out alone all the time, especially shopping alone. i miss those days when shopping with ur girls!!!!! sickening, why all go JCs? o xy is going to poly, but!! she's sicheng everywhere huh. they can never get bored seeing each other everyday. once again, i feel the icky loneiness.
ArGh!!!!!!! i am not gonna let my life in the next month carry on like this! NO WAY! ..yup! i've decided to leave singapore before my poly life starts.