continue from the last blog

everything around mi faded into a hazy blur,even the loud music was muted, as if the volume has been turned down. i am trying to breath in deeply, exhaling slowly...of coz, deliberately calming myself down..its ripping every organ in mi to sherds. i have travelled beyond anger and revulsion la!!!!! even the air i breathed seemed with hatred. why. why everytime leave without an ending. grrr.